im sure it's not pms.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
I guess this is how I feel right now.
Really really tired of everything. Tired of all the politics, tired of all the work that's coming up. tired of all the negativity, and just everything.
Ever since that one trigger 2 weeks ago, i have lost most of my self confidence. It just upsets me how people can be so insensitive. I know I do that sometimes too, being insensitive, but when i'm the subject, the feeling is utterly terrible.
Today is not going to be the only time that such a thing will happen, but I don't know whether i will be as weak, and cry in front of the people i do not want to cry in front of. It just makes me feel weak. I've said to someone before, I don't want to let you see me crying, because I don't want you to think that I'm weak. I suppose this sentence don't hold true anymore yeah? I don't know.
This is only trigger number one. I don't know what's going to happen next week. I'm afraid this psychotic bitch in me will appear again under all the stress i'm going to face next week.
I'm really scared.
captured at 23:45.
