okay im a softie.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

this is a just for laughs :D

ah, i had sexy voice today.

Oh, and seriously, I think talking to the right person really helps. Amazingly, I saw tricia on the way home today, and I talked to her about the situation I am facing now in J8. After talking to her, I realised alot of things. And it's true that I shouldn't quit. Wouldn't that means that the other people that I am against have won the war? I won't let them win so easily.

There are still certain important decisions to make, but I will only make them after this hectic GSS period. Been ending work at 11 plus. Oh wells, at least I got double pay today (: Yay love tricia (:

And my throat feels terrible. I think I kinda shocked Yeesin on the phone just now LOL.

Okay, and I need to go study for Accounting soon. I told Laury I wanted an A for accounting muahahhaha (:

Okay, I think it's kinda impossible since I never really pay attention in lessons or lectures :/

i really miss that day (:

captured at 01:50.

i really fell ill.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

damn depressed about yesterday ):
Had to leave halfway for ssm cos i was feeling faint and uncomfortable :/

And today, still abit headache and flu and cough :/
and when i called my shop to take leave for tomorrow, the ~~fucking bitch~~ scolded me over the phone.
WTH? i didnt come for the meeting, it's natural that i missed out some of the information right? As if it's MY FUCKING FAULT that my colleagues did not tell me what you said. They missed it out, not me. How was I supposed to know what you were going to cover especially when MC wasn't a topic NORMAL MANAGERS usually brought up during meetings. You didn't have to scold me that hard :( All I wanted to do was confirm if you needed an MC, and then you scold me. Seriously, ever since you came, I don't know if I'm able to actually find joy in working anymore. And I'm dreading the 19th June, since I have SA Orientation, and Im damn scared I have to work that day. Oh wells, if I really kena, then bo bian, need to pray if got hao xin ren can take over me or not. Or wait, there isn't any hao xin ren around in the fucking shop. Thanks alot, my days in J8 just gets worse and worse. Then how? Submit resignation? Thanks for spoiling my night, thanks alot. You really suck. Really suck. And I don't care if anyone sees this, because I'm just really upset with stuff going on now ):

Argh, that whole chunk is going to get me into trouble if anyone saw this :/
But what the heck, i'm just really pissed off :<

captured at 21:20.

oh gosh, life's a bitch.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I hope so. Really hope so. :/

I'm so tired now.
But somehow I can't get to sleep.
Yesterday was awesome, because I studied and koi-ed with Jodie, and had tauhuay with Kaleryn and Ruohan at night. For once, my sunday was work-less. And tauhuay session was LOL. oh wells, i missed having that much laughter (:

Sick today ):
And there are so many things to do. I keep telling myself about time management, and priority management, but nothing ever seems to get to me. I just want to go back to the holidays, being busy the way i like it. not like this.
i dread ssm, and all i can say is, i am thankful to have kind friends around in my ssm group, if not i would seriously die. Thanks everyone.

I desperately need the break, and I wanna go out and relax before the new term starts again! Movie anyone? :D

captured at 21:56.

I'm really tired :/

Saturday, May 22, 2010

seriously, i don't know what I have been doing with my life.

School, CCA, Work. That's all.

I haven't been meeting up with my girls, be it 6teen or tension.

I haven't been nice to my body, because I'm skipping meals due to my hectic timetable, and I haven't been sleeping well. This sucks big time D:

I feel a sore throat developing, it's here already actually, and now I feel feverish :/

Wahhhhhhh, I suppose I need some chillax time.

But mid sem is coming, and there are so many tests coming up next week. It's so annoying.

Finally for once, I have a Sunday where I am totally free, but I still have to study >:(

ARGH, I feel damn pissed off with the situation now. Hmph, nothing i can do le luh ):

And, as the days draw nearer, I don't know how I'm going cope with the madness week.

~~I feel like an attention-deprived kid now. I feel invisible. :/~~

Grah colourless post=colourless life. ):

captured at 01:41.

time time time

Thursday, May 20, 2010

oh damn, really dont have a lot of spare time nowadays ):

Crazy pile of stuffs building up, and there are so many things I want to do. ):

Ahhhhhhh, I really think I need an escape. But how?
psst, im happy for you :>

captured at 01:38.

shopping :D

Friday, May 14, 2010

shopping does help :D

After school today, met up with god and angel so that angel can go cotton on and buy stuff with my staff discount :D
she damn funny, buy already become super high (:
We spent a damn long time in montip and both bought a hairband and a ribbon clip.
I guess we're being too gay, got alot of same stuff in diff colours. HAHA!
Went to KFC, and chatted for a long time there (:
Yay, angel i love you too, god dont be jealous :D

Shopping seems to make stuff better haha! :D

captured at 22:18.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD D:

feel like going to the seaside and scream my lungs out.

i think i'd feel better that way.

i hate how wimpy i am, so cowardly and unable to speak my mind even im dying to say it.

This really sucks.

Oh wells.

This week's been rather monotonous.

School, CCA, Prof Test.

Barely any highlights, or none to mention of at all :/

Prof Test was okay, made a few mistakes here and there, and hopefully i passed.

Thursday trainings began from today, and i was happy drumming (:

Shopping with Angel tomorrow,

Still, i need my life to be more fun, and less emo-ness.

Try hard Vivian.

captured at 00:23.

知足

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

五月天 - 知足

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能觉得足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐再不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

captured at 22:02.

lazy to post.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Somehow, I feel damn sian to post LOL.

but then, i realised my ultimate reason for having this blog is to record whatever happened in my life, so i wont forget them.

I realised my memory is failing me nowadays D:

Wednesday morn wasn't a great day for me.

Went to hospital with mummy and daddy abt sissy's stuff, and yeah, sucks to be at the hospital.

~~Whatever.~~

School was alright, then went for cca with more new juniors (:

Well, debrief was sort of...okay?

And a bunch of us decided to go for dinner even though we ended at 11pm.

So we had to cab home LOL.

Thursday was a long long day. Had school, then went down to NJ to meet Jodie for moony's concert (:

Hahahah, then Jodie and I started acting stupid on the way back to NJ from Swirl.

I HAD SWIRL'S PEANUT BUTTER ICE CREAM! SINCE PRE-OS TIMES! god, it's been so long!

Yayayay, thinking about it makes me happy, i want to eat it again ):

But it's allllll the way at Bukit Timah-.-

Anyways, then met the rest, Eehui and Chinpei :D

I fell asleep during the concert, classical is really not my thing D:

But the guitar part was not bad (:

I was practically blind since the concert cos I had to remove both my contacts due to extreme dryness ):

Stupid me forgot to bring my specs.

And abit jialat la, needed chinny to guide me along lol!

But after the concert, as we were walking out, ChinPei and I started singing campfire songs eg:

“I’m a bow-legged chicken, I’m a knock-kneed hen;
Haven’t been so happy since i don’t know when;
I walk with a wiggle and a jiggle and a squawk;
Doing the tennessee wig walk!

Put your knees together and your feet apart;
Tuck your arms under just for luck;
Bend down low and you’re ready to start;
As you wiggle and you wobble like a baby duck!

I’m a bow-legged chicken, I’m a knock-kneed hen;
Haven’t been so happy since i don’t know when;
I walk with a wiggle and a jiggle and a squawk;
Doing the tennessee wig walk!”

Hahahah, this song is such a fun one to dance with :D

Then after that, we started singing IJ spirit and danced the family dance along the main road at the bus stop. LOL, damn funny!

I really love my girls! <3

Friday was okay, went back to school to help out for 20th anniversary.

And then I realised, TP students are like hungry ghosts.

We had a buffet, and the first thing everyone did was to chiong out and take a mountain of food :D

Awesome much!

Worked at night, and had a skin allergy from all the dust in the fitting room.

Eew. And we worked till damn late :/

Celebrated Mummy's day on Saturday after work.

Watched Ip Man 2 and it was veryyyyyyyy niceeeeeeeee :D

Then went to Jalan Sultan to eat salted chicken, but the coffee shop was closed for renovations, so we ended up eating claypot rice at golden mile food complex (:

Went to Kuan's house afterwards and slept like a pig there LOL.

Today, was a long day of work, but surprisingly, time seemed to pass by damn fast. I think it's cause I'm okay with everyone working today (:

Bought new clothes and shoes today for only 30 bucks (Y)

Hahahah, working at Cotton On has its perks (:

i wanna go on a date. with someone.

captured at 00:29.

i dont know whats wrong.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Every week, my mondays and tuesdays seem very screwed up.

And the best part is, I know's it's my problem and i can't blame anyone for it.

I guess for Monday, it's enough said for salvo-ians, and i don't really want to say anything more.

All I can say is, we seemed to have lost something along the way, and we need to come together, to find it back. I don't know what to say actually... but perhaps all I can say is, I will try my best. It's not just empty talk. It's a promise, not to anyone, but to myself.

SSM feels like an adrenaline rush, exciting, yet somehow dangerous at the same time.

Damn scary. Yet fun at the same time.

Oh wells.

But I love meeting my H12 girls, we finally had a full ten people attendance today eating at technos :D

Love you girls, because you girls make me happy (:

With a heavy heart for so many stuff in life, I don't know what to expect from other things.

5th May tomorrow, and I dont know if I should go to the hospital with Mum and Dad. :/

I dont like the vibes a hospital gives me. Urgh.

captured at 21:10.

when things start to change.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I really need an outlet to vent my frustrations.

And an escapade to run away from everything.

maybe one day will do.

but i cannot find any day that can be that one day. argh.

Performed at Shang-ri La Hotel for some Aljunied GRC thing today.

Super atas I tell you.

And the place is super nice (Y)

Performance was sort of compromised with the very very very limited space on the stage they set up in their Ballroom. And i bloody made a mistake.

And I know I shouldnt keep crying over the little mistakes I made, I should learn from it instead.

And a lesson learnt from Salvo.

" When life gives you apples, find ways to smash them up."

Clearly demonstrated by Ruohan, Marshall and Edmund who used various ways to smash their apples up. We had like 3 bags of apples given by the organiser today. And we even had an apple fight. LOL.

Anyways, it was fun la (: We had lots of fun watching the boys play soccer while jeopardising our lives by standing in the middle of nowhere while they're playing.

Ohemgee, watching E.U on Channel 856 now.

Think youyou in the show is damn brave. Wish I had her guts.

captured at 00:18.