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2011-01-11T00:33:00.001+08:00

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UPDATES!

2010-10-29T01:38:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna type an uber long post, just to update about my life (:
Uhm, let's start from... August? Hahaha!

My Salvo Girls' Outing at hotput culture and Mind's cafe!

See hua er so zhuan xin in playing the game!

Then it was back to St Nicks with the girls <3

My dearest Jacq and me <3

6teen minus eehui!

Xiami <3

Yummy yummy orange bowl! :>

See my darling so cute :>

Participated in F1 race ambassadors, and it was really fun with the new girls i met there (: Quite a good exposure to the F1 scene in Singapore!

Then it was back to hitting the books for accounting, followed by a day of shopping at Bugis to celebrate the end of paper. It was quite hilarious since we haven't even finished our exams yet! LOL. But yeah, we shopped around Bugis, and had our usual yogurt nomnomnom! (:

Watched Love Cuts with Shermagne and Hua er after Shermagne's last paper, it was considered one of the best local films that i've watched. (:

Worth a watch (:

Thon-ed the night away with clement, marc, eric, ruohan, kelvin, edmund, jiahuan and shermagne as an outing before clement, eric and marc enlists!

Watched resident evil:after life at night, walked to eat tauhuay, stoned to talk somewhere, and then went for breakfast in the morning! (:

Byebye to congcong!

Fell really sick after the exams, but thankfully i was okay enough for a sleepover at Gwen's which we did all those girlie stuffs like bitch and apply nail polish. HAHA:D Yeah and we played Monopoly! :> Oh and of course camwhoring with Gingy! (:

Then watched the uber hilarious but heartwarming GROWN UPs with cousins! (:

Met up with my secondary school loves randomly throughout the holidays, such as Jodie, Yuensin, Yinmin and Marcus (: (Technically Marcus is not a sec school love, he's just randomly added in here :>) Oh and also ice cream date-turned-coffee club muddy mud pie date with yeesin and russell :D It's awesome yo!

Celebrated my birthday with Chervyn on the day before, where she surprised me with a bouquet, and then meeting up with salvo people to eat bah kut teh with smay in balestier!
Then on the actual day, the awesome adorable salvo people surprised me with a super big sunflower which was fake but still beautiful! I was so surprised and of course touched! (: it's still in my room now! :D Oh and a secret awesome present for me too! Thanks people! (:

Had a 2H05 Chalet, had a H12 family outing, and a chalet for Sammy's bday! (: Had hell lots of fun throughout the weeks! (: Then it was ITB Asia which we worked for 6 days, and I got to know many people, and also learned more about a trade show. and I guess i found my calling? i'd really like to do things associated with events, because it's challenging, and dynamic i guess? Anyways, pretty enjoyed everything, and boom, there goes the end of my holidays!

School has reopened, and oh wells, I'll try to refresh this space more often. Mostly my hiatus are caused by my breakdowns of lappy ): it sucks and im so glad im getting the laptop back so soon! (:

Meanwhile, I guess I'll be tumblr-ing more often, prolly will just start shifting there. (: So this is the link: http://hitthemalls.tumblr.com
Yupp, thats all for my updates, toodles! :>

it's over.

2010-09-21T07:41:00.001+08:00

there's nothing i can say, except that i had one of the worse nights in my life.
the worst thing is, i feel fucking alone now.

LAPTOP DOWN AGAIN

2010-09-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

So sad, my laptop is screwed. I need to go replace the MF Motherboard again ): Shall find the time to do it after exams! :<

So far, I've been spending my time mugging, and accounting paper was finally over.
Except being able to go back SN on 31 Aug, it's been a bore actually. I really missed SN so much (: Everyone has been awesome, and Happy Teacher's Day to all my teachers (:

Tralalallala, I can't find my motivation to study ever since Accounting paper was over, because it was sort of the "killer paper". Hmph, and i' like busy going out for leisure, not to study. Oh wells.

Rahhhhhhhh, I hate this, I want my laptop. my stupid desktop suck ballxzs ):
Hey i miss you.

back from chalet, time to studyyyyyy! D:

2010-08-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

Had a pretty fun week, more or less enjoyed myself, and i managed to fit in 3 days of studying! :>

So uhm, I sort of left off from last Friday, which I went for Race Ambassadors Training, and I think it's going to be so exciting to be part of the F1 hype! Perhaps you'll see me around town giving out flyers and F1 souvenirs (:

Saturday was spent studying at home, then randomly meeting shermagne and ruohan for Indian food then watching Midnight show for Step Up 3D! :D Moose was cool (Y)

It's really awesome! And the 3D effects really make things different! Because it seems as if they're dancing in front of you! I liked it :D

Went to baibai with family on Sunday, having to drag myself up at 7am despite reaching home at 2am the day before! Talked with my cousins and I think it's damn cool that Kuan can drive already! (: He drove us to his place, and I stoned there before Yeesin ended her aikido training and met me at Amk to go thomson for some long-time-no-eat icekimo. Yeesin I miss out hthts so much! :D but i love you! <3

Spent Monday, Wednesday and Thursday mugging in school, and okay luh, fairly productive (:

Tuesday was awesome because there was a salvo girls outing <3

Attendees: Jiahuan, Hua er, Angel, Shermagne, Yaogui, Sister Jiamin, Amanda, Soengmay and Liyen! Went hotpot culture in marina square to makan, ate for 4 hours, and talked non stop (: we saw Yanqi there too haha! :D It was a very fun outing, because there was mind cafe afterwards which we played Jungle Speed, Ugly Doll and Uno Stacko. Uno stacko was epic, made me want to buy it and play again in the future! (:

Definitely, all the talking and bonding, I really enjoyed myself thoroughly and I love you girls! <3

Just returned from salvo chalet, feeling damn tired!

Met up with jiahuan, edmund, yaogui and sister jiamin to go Hua er's place and made cards for the seniors who are going Army! (: Then we went to chalet and had dinner with everyone, and watched movie, and then played games! I know many people liked the pacifiers I bought heehee :>

Then watched movie at night, like harold and kumar 1 and 2, then yours mine and ours, watched till the day... fell asleep at 5 plus and woke up at 8 plus. the floor was super cold i swear!

Went to the market to buy the bbq stuffs, Watched movie and played games in the chalet on the second day, and then marinated the food, it was really really fun :>

BBQ-ed, yeesin came, we talked, we cooked, and it was pretty much th usuals stuff!

Played bao zhi da clement, and I swear, It's no good being Zhixiong's partner because he was the new clement. He kena hoot 4 times when he was my partner know D:

Then we watched movie again into the night, and I fell asleep again! D: Always feel damn tired this time :/

Woke up and packed up before checking out and going to makan then go home and sleep.

Hee I really enjoyed the chalet this time, big thanks to clement for organising it, but oh dear, I'm going to miss the people who went/going army ):

I need to study! :/ I need hardcore accounting. But I need to study my marketing. Hmph D:

Nvm, tmr go back to school study! (Y)

Hey girl, you know I love you and i'll always be there for you. cheer up and you know that whatever happens, you know you have me by your side <3

a lucky escape.

2010-08-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

Just now when I was in the kitchen, my cupoboard door dropped on the floor.
I was so terrified that I just squat down there, not knowing what to do.
If I were slower by a second, or if I were just a few cm nearer to the cupboard, I guess I wouldn't be typing this now.
My god.
It was so scary ):

trainings trainings trainings.

2010-08-19T00:18:00.001+08:00

Weekend spent with the people I love so much, my 6teen and my family (:

Studying with the girls was more or less okay, except that I'm getting brainwashed by them to like SuJu. Okay, Donghae is really cute alright! :D

Then had steamboat dinner at Kuan's house, and I totally made a fool of myself in front of his friends D: All his fault la.

Then, my past week has been revolving around trainings and the other highlight would be Suki with my H12 family.

Ah I miss Sammy and Wanleng and Huiyi and Gwen so much! With all the random laughters and jokes and omfg all the funny weird topics, they never fail to make my day (:

Ate at Suki buffet, walked around town, looking for cheap buys, and snacked at Macs, I realised how much I need them in my life. We can talk about the most random stuff, bitch about the people we don't like, following up on their lives, and just being so enthusiastic about meeting up with each other. Ohmy I love you all <3

Okay, easy on the cheesy stuff. So yupp, this week is the last week of training, and I realised today was going to be Clement's last day in Salvo ): Because CCA is going to be stopped till 22 Sept, and he's enlisting on 13 Sept ): Ohmy, damn depressing D: I'm going to miss you Clement!

and today I got a splinter in my shoe, which resulted in very slight bleeding on my sole. nothing serious, but i'm annoyed at the plaster. D: Okay, I just mentioned this for fun.

And something weird happened today. A random stranger who was taking 969 with us alighted at the same stop as me and she talked to me as I was walking home. Apparently she's my Primary School senior and Idk what mind I was in when I actually gave her my number when she asked for it. And she called me just now. Freaking weird D: Let's hope she doesn't hound me, I'll freak out. Shit, I'm such an idiot.

Things would have been different with you around ):

Right, tumblr's being PMS-ing for the past 2 days, got some major catching up to do! And I'm going to watch Glee! :D It's so nice! :D

chaotah.

2010-08-14T02:01:00.000+08:00

The semester ended with rehearsals and trainings for the YOG performance, I have been going back to school for everyday of the holiday, except for today haha.

All the random trainings have ended with long long talks, starting from Thursday and Friday, and we've been going home really late haha.

Met up with my dear 6teen on Saturday after what seemed like ages, and yes I missed them soooooo much! And we ended up going home really late cos we went to eat at thomson plaza and talked till 9 plus (: Love you girls <3

Monday was Salvo's National Day Barrage Outing! :>

Totally not a good idea to be early when meeting Salvo, I waited for them for about 1 and a half hours! ): Oh wells, but we had fun under the sun, playing with water, and flying kites, and playing with bubbles (:

And we also saw the NDP airplanes flying past! :D

and fireworks too :D

All in all, it was a very fun outing with the salvo people and Happy National Day! :>

And of course, under the BIG HOT SUN, we all chaotah-ed ):

Then on tuesday was our fantastic YOG performance! (:

Free flow of coke all day! :>

Also, we attended a talk by Hossan Leong

"Planting rice is never fun!"

Somehow, his talk inspired me a little.

Should I start to sit down and think if I should pursue the arts in the future? I don't know. Will it pay the bills? Will it all pay off? I don't know.

Definitely, this is a question worth pondering.

Anyways, so after the performance, we had buffet,

but but but, suay sia, the green curry got everyone having a diarrhoea the next day ):

Had training on Wednesday with people feeling queasy because many of us got the diarrhoea ):

Still, we ended training early and many of us went for dinner! :>

And I finally finished my OTCM test, hopefully I can get an A for OTCM! ^^

Yesterday had training and we learnt Limit Break, and yesterday's training was so fun because we enjoyed playing the score so much :>

Also, there was rh's surprise visit after his bookout! Welcome back! :>

Went back to SN with Chengmun and Jodie for some good ol' orange bowl and random foods!

Orange bowl's orange bowl, Drink stall's Ice Tea, Western food stall's chicken and pizza, and Aunty Meow Lang's Gyoza!:>

Also had Bread Stall's chicken cheese, but I didnt take a photo of it hahah (:

Was at a random high being able to eat orange bowl hahah!

Anyways, managed to see Mrs Chan and Luo Lao Shi when we went back, and I also managed to talk to some of my greens, like Ziqing, and the whole lot of them:

They are so cute I swear :>

Then met up with Wanyi, Wanyi's sister, Charmaine Koh, Karen, Karen's friend and Ruohan for NYPCO's Kaleidoscope!

It was a very enjoyable evening with the orchestra playing both classic pieces and trendy pop songs! Very glad that I got to hear it (:

Made our way to AMK central and had KOI :>

Cabbed home, and now here I am, feeling really really tired. ):

Grah, and I need to study soon!

Maybe tomorrow! :>

welcome back, get well soon, im gna miss you ):

Many things I want.

2010-08-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

I want sleepovers,

I want pig-out sessions,

I want heart to heart talks,

I want ice cream days,

I want Study Together Dates (STDs),

I want meet ups,

I want to just hang out,

I want random supper nights.

In all, I just want to be happy.

It's been a week and imy.

as busy as a bumble bee! ):

2010-08-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

The weekend was totally busy!

Last week's Friday was spent eating top table with the Gwen, Sammy, Wanleng and Laury, and the food was so so la, i still feel like a rabbit eating Caesar salad as a starter LOL.

Then I went to my NEW workplace to teach tuition, which was totally awesome, because it was fun (:

~~Though my boss is kinda kpo LOL.~~

Then it was karen's bday celebration in malaysia!

met Chiawei in the morning to take bus to tamp to meet the rest who were going Karen's bday party, but then as I was late for 5 minutes, he wouldn't stop nagging at me for being late for that 5 minutes ): Sian la, all he can do is to bully me non stop lor D:

met up with wanyi marcus and ziying for prata, then edmund and kelvin came, liyen came to say hi, and and then charmaine koh's daddy drove us to Changi Village Ferry Terminal :> So nice leh uncle! :>

Hahahaha, at the terminal, I spammed called Sijia for 11 times, end up she just woke up. Lucky she could meet ruth they all in the afternoon! hahahah! Then we took the ferry to pengarang, where Karen lives!

Boat ride a little bumpy, maybe i'm not used to it. Then we cabbed to Karen's house, and chiawei was damn stupid on the cab. He kept saying he didnt know how to speak malay, when the cabbie spoke to him in chinese -.- Then he so paiseh lor, the uncle is chinese what! Hahahah!

Karen's house was cool, we had yellow rambutans, a tour around her house and kelvin and chiawei had a shot at driving karen's motorbike! Kelvin drive got seh lor! :>

Went over to the place we were staying, Bao An Gong to settle down, and some of us went to Marrybrown to dabao food, and everyone knocked out after eating lor. All napped like pigs hahah! Meanwhile, charmaine choo, sijia, ruth and cheryl came!

Karen's friends damn nice, ferried us up and down, and for the party, we had this vehicle that was like a pick-up, so we all scrambled to the back to enjoy the wind against our faces when they drove! He was driving at like 120 kmph? LOL!

The party was nice, many people in blue, we had fun laughing at Chiawei being dumb, and of course, all the good food by Karen's mum, it's awesome! And the cake there, woots it's a drum with the words Da Shu! Cool! Oh and lynchan came, and she took the 21 bucks ferry over leh! Expensive sia....!

hthts with charmaine koh, lynchan and a few other people over the night, and i guess it was experiences like this that makes me treasure these people around me (:

Nua-ed the next day away, and we sibeh kei-kiang, eat in the balcony where the freezing cold wind was blowing at us non stop. I swear, it was super cold!
So yeah, we went back to Singapore at 3pm, then then ate at Changi Village yum :> Then it was home and nua-ness all the way :>

Monday started school late, so I went to Sugarloaf to support Number 4 :>

Spent 13 bucks leh, XIN TONG ):

And our ssm yesterday! Wooots we sort of ended it with a bang! :>

Thanks everyone for always being so awesome and I really love my team!

Today is submission of OTCM project, and I will be projectless for this month! Happy :>

Okay after such a long and exhaustive list of what I have done this week, I guess it's time for some reflection for this semester.

H12 girls: It's awesome that we've been able to keep in close contact despite being in different classes and all. Though we have new friends, new project mates, we don't forget one another and still love one another as much as we did :> You girls have been terribly awesome, and yes we need to meet up again soon because i missed out on the previous food trail ): Love you all lots, from the bottom of my heart (:

My SSM team: Though I don't know who actually reads this, but if you do, I hope you know how awesome you people have been, especially felt when I was sick on the second week of Sugarloaf, and when I was headwaiter for Top Table. I guess friendships forged through ssm don't go away like that, since we can say we've had the good times and the bad times. To my new friends, thanks for eveything (:

Salvo: Throughout the course of this sem, I guess things have changed, but I guess it's meaningful when I get to know more about the people around me, and of course being able to talk to more of them. The seniors whom I rarely talked to in the past especially, thanks for always being so caring and i hope you know how much i love you :>

6teen: The group of girls that I feel most apologetic to. Because of my immensely busy schedule, I havent been able to meet up with you guys as we used to ): Still, it's nice to know that you girls have been by my side, and the random tweets you people send me make me really touched. You know I love you girls, alot :>

Jacq, Yuensin: Meet ups with you girls over this sem was fun, especially bumping into each other, or random house visits, all these little moments have been great. Sorry due to my busy schedule I couldnt meet you all also, but but do take care of yourselves and we'll meet up again soon okok? :>

So far that's all the shoutouts I have especially after the course of this semester. Being tired does have it's good points, as when we start to take a rest, we realise how important people are around us (: thanks for everything :>

Okay this is a super duper long post, but yes, i like it :> This sem is finally over fuckyeahhhhhhhh :>

My life is like a PLC

2010-07-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

Nah, PLC means product life cycle, that came from studying too much marketing ):
Wait, I didn't even study for it haha (:

Lalalalala the past week macham slacker week, enjoying life the way it is though there are still projects etc.
And it just dawned on me that I still have many stuffs undone!
OTCM, Project Week Souvenirs, Return CO card, etc etc.
Okay la, life's gonna get better after next week, we can do it! :D

Got back BESE and got an A for the project, was pretty proud of our team ^^
Prof Test 2 was considered a breeze for me since I've got the easiest combi ever, Caesar Salad, Aioli Platter and Mushroom Soup. Easy or what?
Then went to watch The Crazies! It was gorrrrrrrrrrrry ): Still, I managed to down my cuppa koi after the movie :>

Actually come to think of it, it was quite a good horror movie, though the plot a bit crap la. Hahahaha, go watch it if you don't mind a little of scare :>

Yesterday, woah, debrief till 1130pm, aiyah, good to thrash certain things out, and i feel that, let's hope that what happened will help us improve and perhaps make us more bonded and committed to salvo (: after debrief, ran fater the last 168, went to woodlands 515 to eat with edmund and cw before cabbing home. Seriously, going home past 1230am on Wednesdays should never start being a trend. Last week also like that, yesterday also like that ): Hahahah, but okok la, at least earlier than last week hehe (:

Today's marketing test was sort of easy? Aiyah, I think can pass la, I basically got all the points there already. If cannot make it, then it's fate's call already la :D
Okay, I should start my OTCM soon, though I am falling asleep :/ Yawnnnnnnnnn ):

The crazy life

2010-07-25T17:28:00.000+08:00

Ponned school on friday because stupid printer screwed up and end up i wasn't going to be on time for acc lecture, so i gave up and stoned at home before watching an incredible movie with Jodie (:

Inception!

I totally fell in love with Joseph Gordon-Levitt, who is the Point Man. He reminds me of Keanu Reeves who's a total hottie, but yes he damn good looking in the movie okay! :>

The day ended with Jodie with Koi and heading over to Kuan's house. And and, talking to Geokhan made me sad. She called me a wimp :< Aiyah, I also know, but then.... :/ Oh wells.

And yesterday I did the craziest thing in my life.

Waited for 6 hours plus, for only 1 minute of my life. Oh my.

And it was MBS stay again, and here I am back home, regretting not doing my BESE early enough :/ okay at least I've finished all my peer evaluation, so okay, I only have individual portfolio left! Come on, chiongggggggggggggggggggggggggggg! :>

I guess nothing matters to you eh? I blame myself for being a fool. 3 days. Fuck it.

late night talks

2010-07-22T04:46:00.000+08:00

made it through the most hectic of this week, and currently enjoying life, until project week comes :/
Still gotta finish most of my work asap so i can enjoy the weekend (:

Went for this student feedback forum today and i was super happy with myself. a year 1 freshman was being a spoilt brat and started talking like: What's the point of SSM, I don't even like waitressing! And she started like "arguing" with the acting CM who was there at the event. So being freaking pissed off at her attitude, I said something:

" Frankly speaking, who likes waitressing? Who likes SSM? Who doesn't dread at the thought of having SSM? Truth is, we all don't like it, but still we take it. We learn new things, we make new friends from other classes. At the end of all these, we can proudly tell ourselves, we have made it through."

And what shocked me was the applauses given to me by the teachers and the year twos present (:
Thanks everyone, I just wanted to let the girl know that she can't be such a spoilt brat in this industry :>

P.S:
Today, was crazy.
Sat at my busstop talking to cw and rh till 4am. ohmygod.
It's a school night and I start at 9am tmr.
Lucky my mum never wake up and realise, if not I sure die in a mess.
Record breaking sia.
Reached home at 4.05am.
And it ended because cw HAD to go home.

gosh, i still need to prepare for OTCM project interview tomorrow. GG.

escapade

2010-07-18T22:17:00.001+08:00

Run baby run, don't ever look back.

Grah, though I just had super shiok steamboat dinner with my family, but it sucks coming home to project work, especially when i'm almost half dead with the bloody coordination and i have not studied for BESE or finished my BESE task yet. I really need to prioritise properly, before I drop dead and die.

Monday:
Marketing presentation
BESE Task 3
BESE Test
TTO Submission

Tuesday:
Wine Service Test

Thursday:
OTCM Project Interview

Next Monday:
BESE Indiv portfolio
BESE Dining Task

Next Thursday:
Marketing Test

Peer evaluations for Mktg and TTO.

Gosh, let me die please. D:

Btw, at dinner just now, i think my mum really knows me so well that the things she says just stunned me hahah. Love you mum <3
omfg, 1.5 more weeks to you leaving, zen me ban? ): should i say?

need a break now :/

2010-07-17T14:04:00.001+08:00

I'm supposed to be doing my TTO now, but my brains are like frying:/ I need a break now. Haven't been blogging for a week already. Guess I'm moving towards tumblr more often now haha.

Last friday went to Botanic Gardens to meet xiaoxiao to have lunch together with Shermagne, Smay, Lynchan, Liyen and Karen (: Went to this place called Hatched where their speciality are eggs! hahaha I was so happy because i love eggs :D
Then we went to SimLim with Karen to buy her stuff and had yumyum ice monster in bugis! :D
Watched Despicable Me afterwards and hahahah I can't get over Agnes' cuteness luh (:

Had TTO test on Saturday, then had movie with parents and sissy (: Watched Ip Man: A Legend is Born. But it was so so la, not as good as the actual ones.

Sunday was awesome! (except for the morning part) Had work, then went home to do work when Kuan texted me to go to his place to watch the WC finals! So I used my awesome persuasion skills to ask my mum to go over! When I got there at 9 plus, he told me he was only going to be home at 1 plus -.- good thing Geokhan was at home, and we had a looooooong htht (: Olivia came over too and we watched the match indulging in Macs! :D
Wheeeee Spain won! (: So I survived with barely 3 hours of sleep before going to school on Monday (:

Past week was like, urgh. But I was mostly in a good mood la (: Heeeeee:D

Then yesterday was fun minus the accounting paper. I screwed it up despite 4 hours of intense mugging and calculating ):
Anyways, went to watch Sachoom with Charmaine Koh, Amanda, Lynchan, Smay and Ruohan! And teehee I had KOI thanks to ruohan who went to buy hurhur :D
Sachoom was nice! The dance, the efforts put in, the effects, the lightings, the storyline, it was just awesome! Overall a very fun event and I'm glad that I went for it! :D

Then had dinner at Macs and tried the new spicy nuggets and honey chipotle fries, not bad, i kinda like it :D Chatted for quite long before train-ing home! (: I couldn't get the smiley mood away cos I was really high most of the time hahahah:D

Ah, didnt manage to go zoo with the Salvo people because i need to do my TTO, which reminds me, time to go back to work! :D
thanks for the puppet, i liked it :> and you know, 2 weeks is gonna pass by really soon :/

Goodbye.

2010-07-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

Spending time with my H12 family is always fun and enjoyable, even when we have nothing much to do. I love the time the spent together (: It's even better when we pig out together!

From Monday till yesterday, I've been preoccupied with the idea that I may have been fired and all I had was angst and being upset at the attitude I thought I was given. Point is, an SMS can never explain things well enough and it's only fair that the other party is given a chance to explain herself, and clarify everything.
Hence I decided to make the call today and ask if I was actually fired. I was glad that I heard my manager out, and I figured that me leaving will be a best choice since I was getting tired to work at cotton on, be it mentally or physically. It's been a fruitful experience working there, and I made many friends whom I know I will not lose contact for a long time. Glad that everything is over, and after this month, it's time to start afresh. No point on dwelling on everything, and let it go before things turn ugly right?

I guess today's a really a good day isn't it? :>

sleep-deprived.

2010-07-02T21:56:00.001+08:00

Finally, the mad rush week has been over!

Monday's presentation was alright, before heading to studio for CCA awards rehearsal.

It was generally alright, but I thought I was going to die when I carried the drum to TCC.

hahahhaa, it was damn heavy plssssss, but i managed to carry one drum on my own all the way there! :>

Still, it was okay luh, trained at TCC, then went back to Studio for training in Studio 8 with the lost island people :>

I think it's damn fun to teach there!

Tuesday's stint as Headwaiter was omfg. :<

It really didnt go well especially Mr Goh had VIPs who came to lunch at Top Table.

Luckily, Mr Goh did not scold us, instead he talked to me in a really nice tone, that everyone was like, shocked hahah!

And there was a knnbccb captain who screwed up my day, but thanks for all the support that my team has given me, I'm glad I have you guys :>

Wednesday didnt go so well. I didnt manage to go back for TTO in time for my Field Trip Sharing ): Still, the performance was okay :>

And we cheered like monkeys for the Salvo people who received their awards! Yay :>

Received a treat from Marc at Fish and Co. and had yummy chocolate fudge cake (:

It was uber awesome :>

And otw home, we were all busy counting money because there was a mistake in people paying up lol. Heeee, I got tian fen to be a treasurer :>

Training yesterday was fun, because we pasted the jie lings (the name of the seasons) on the drums.

And it ended up becoming a waxing session with the transparent adhesive film ._____.

Hmph :<

Cabbing home was funny, squeezed with smay, edmund, ruohan and marc. And the taxi uncle ( okay he said to call him da ge lol ) very nice, sent edmund and smay to woodlands and marc to sembawang first before going to yishun since he was going to yishun. then he stopped the meter when marc got off :>

We zhuan dao hehheh :)

Today was fuuuuuun!

Top Table Dining task, then had toy story 3 with Jodie, Eehui, Chengmun, Mitchell and Isabel! :>

Went PS initially, then they had no tickets, so we chionged to Suntec to watch the 3D one!

Cried at the end because it was so touching!

Lalallalalaalla, loved the movie so much!

Then walked around in Suntec before heading home with Moony and Jodie (:

Yay SN sports day tomorrow! Can't wait :>

you know smth? im going to miss you for a week :/ Have a safe trip kay? See ya soon :>

deadlines again

2010-06-24T17:25:00.000+08:00

It's the madrush week.

Project deadlines next week, together with individual works to be submitted. Rahh.

And work like hell this weekend, Idk how I'm going to survive actually. Hopefully some nice person can help me cover.

Hmmmm, life's been alright nowadays.

Stressed up as usual.

So much so that I quit my job.

Hmph, oh wells, mad rush this week.

Checklist of next week:

Monday:

Marketing Project Due

BESE Project Due

BESE Symposium Presentation

CCA Awards Rehearsal

Tuesday:

Headwaiter for SSM

(OMFGWTHBBQ)

Wednesday:

TTO Field Trip Sharing

CCA Awards Performance

Okay, so far that's all. But, 3 days got so many things to do! Oh wells, I will be able to survive! (:

~~Somehow being back from the Mid sem holidays brought back certain memories from a year ago. Hahah, what a fool was I. (:~~

Sabah Sabah Sabah!

2010-06-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

Sabah trip was awesome ttm (:

Lots of fun and laughter, especially with Kelly, Emma, Linghui and Wanleng :D

Day One!

It's byebye Singapore! We had to be at the airport uber early at 6.15 am! After check in, had breakfast with Daddy and the girls before going in to take the plane to KK! (: Mad photo frenzy on the plane because we were so fascinated by the awesome view outside (: Okay la, I suaku kid, second time take plane, that's why so amazed. Hahaha (:

After touching down, we went to have lunch at a local restaurant! (:

After that, it was the city tour around the place, which includes the State Museum, A chinese temple, as well as the state mosque. Went to the biggest shopping mall in KK, known as One Borneo, and shopped around there. After that it was dinner. Lol, the dinner sucked, because Kelly found a finger nail in the lemon chicken. Major eeeeewwwww. ):

Night market up next! It was a good thing that it wasn't raining! (: Bought a ring and a wallet there (:

Back to the hotel that, and here are my roomies for 4 nights!

Day Two!

Sort of the most boring day during the trip. It was a day of seminars. First up was talk by Sabah Tourism Board, then in the afternoon was Sabah Parks. Ahahah, literally fell asleep la. Still you can see how bored we were.

All wearing specs hahaha! (:

But we were in for a special treat when our tour manager, Peter, told us that he'd take us to the local handicraft market to shop (: The view on the way to the market was awesome, and we took loads of pictures (:

Group picture! :D

Then at the handicraft market, we bought loads of souvenirs back for everyone (:

Peter also brought us to the Sabah Tourism Board's souvenir shop to purchase local coffee, tea and also a cute proboscis monkey soft toy! :D

After that, it was back to the second seminar, followed by 3 hours of free and easy (meaning shopping time) before we headed out for a seafood steamboat dinner (: We were treated by a cultural show as well!

Day Three!

Most awesome day of the trip (:

First up was a visit to the University of Malaysia, Sabah. (UMS) They shared about their Hotel and Tourism course, and we also went to their Museum. Their school has a super picturesque view! :D

This was take at UMS (:

Then we went to the Sutera Habour, where it had a resort and a hotel in its premises. We went for a resort and hotel inspection, and the place was super shiokkkkk! Enjoyed it so much!

Then we were in for a scrumptious meal for buffet! Ahahhaha, literally ate like a pig. Had laksa, salads, main courses, cakes, dessert, fruits. Ohmy, like major pigout! Hahahahh but the food was so good, I think it was the best that we ever had throughout the entire trip (:

Stopped by somewhere to take pictures :D

Next, we were off to Weston for our river cruise! It was kinda scary, being on a river that was crocodile infested, but it was really fun! We had tea time on a restaurant built on stilts!

The official river cruise then commenced! We were on the lookout for the proboscis monkey, and unexpectedly, we had the awesome privilege of seeing an amazing double rainbow (: We were so awed by it! Plus the sunset was absolutely stunning!

Isn't it pretty? (: It was the best experience of the trip! :D

Then we went back to the restaurant for our dinner till it was dark enough. We went back on the cruise to look at fireflies (: I caught one and really, it was like catching a star :D and and, there were ALOT OF STARS in the sky. All i can say was that, it was a really beautiful night that I would never forget.

Then it was back to the hotel for a well deserved rest (:

Day Four!

We set off to Mt Kinabalu Park! On the way, we went to a little town near the foot of the Mountain and took many fabulous pictures there (:

Isn't the view awesome? :D

Then we headed for lunch and trekking in the park! We saw the Poring Hot Springs, as well as the Canopy Walkway. It was like the suspension bridge thing and I was amazed at my courage to go on it! Okay la, end up it wasn't that scary (:

We also walked to a waterfall where we just took off our shoes and went in! The water was super cold and shiok! :D

Then we were so so so lucky to be able to see a blooming of the rafflesia! (:

This concluded the end of our nature trek, and then we went back to the hotel! We went to their Fish and Co to eat and it was so so so cheap! RM15.90 leh! (:

Then shopping at F.O.S, and i got banana republic's tank tops at 2 for RM32 :D Happy girl!

And I love Secret Recipe's Apple Cheese Slice. I don't know if Singapore sells it or not! It's like a cheesecake over an apple jam crust. Yummmmmmmm (:

Day Five!

It's byebye to the hotel and Sabah as we checked out early to go to a local kopitiam to eat breakfast. Then we went to the chocolate factory to get some chocolates for people back home (:

Then we headed to the airport!

Our tour guide Reynold!

Our Bus 2 Teacher In Charge Ms Quah (:

Then as usual we camwhored before boarding the plane. (:

And and, new friends on the trip :D

Joey and Vanessa (:

Alright, this concludes my awesome trip to Sabah (: Hopefully I'll get a chance to go there again because it's been really fun and awesome (:

But, I don't want school to reopen ): Hmph ):

Gosh, SSM on tuesday, wonder how i will survive!

im flying tomorrow!

2010-06-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

whee. im excited. not.
not when everything seems to be crumbling around me. not when i know everything's not okay, and still im supposed to enjoy myself overseas.
oh wells :/

Salvo camp for the past few days was awesome (:
Games, bonding, doing stupid things together, they were all part of awesome memories that made part of my salvo life (:
Hahaha, it's hard to believe that it has already been a year since I joined Salvo.
And now we have new juniors! (:

we are one big family (:

Then piah-ed thursday for cca awards performance score, and it was fun actually (:

Not going to say much about yesterday about today, except that we've been shuttling to and fro the hospital, and i've been almost a total wreck.

Thanks to all my friends who asked after her and my family, thanks for everything (:

Hope everything will be okay soon, and the pain for everything will pass by soon :/

Oh and I saw this picture which made me feel that yuanwei and i are so sister-like lol.

no la, this is just a random shot, but it's kinda cool hahahah (:

grah

2010-06-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

well i suppose this is always the case. :/

grah, stop thinking about it vivian.

recently, everything's not going right. seriosuly.

my stupid payroll query shit. i have to submit it by tmr,

meaning i need to go down tomorrow early in the morn just to settle it, and it means that i will miss like a few hours of camp?

i dont like it ):

ih wells, there's nothing else i can do, so ohwells. just fuck la. urgh.

okayokay, i need a chill pill. perhaps a happy pill?

im sure it's not pms.

2010-06-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

I guess this is how I feel right now.

Really really tired of everything. Tired of all the politics, tired of all the work that's coming up. tired of all the negativity, and just everything.

Ever since that one trigger 2 weeks ago, i have lost most of my self confidence. It just upsets me how people can be so insensitive. I know I do that sometimes too, being insensitive, but when i'm the subject, the feeling is utterly terrible.

Today is not going to be the only time that such a thing will happen, but I don't know whether i will be as weak, and cry in front of the people i do not want to cry in front of. It just makes me feel weak. I've said to someone before, I don't want to let you see me crying, because I don't want you to think that I'm weak. I suppose this sentence don't hold true anymore yeah? I don't know.

This is only trigger number one. I don't know what's going to happen next week. I'm afraid this psychotic bitch in me will appear again under all the stress i'm going to face next week.

I'm really scared.

this blog is starting to rot.

2010-06-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

i guess it's due to my tumblr addict hahah! (:

My last post, was on Friday, so that means I haven't updated since Saturday!

Went to lavender with the ele, huiyi and gwen :D

Had awesome Thai food and Belgium Waffles yum.

I <3 Belgium waffles so much! HAHAHAH:D

Then we went town to walk around, and seriously, whenever we go out, I suppose th bulk of our activity is having dinner then chat for a long time before heading home. It's almost routine alrd lol!

But spending time with them always make me happy :D

Went to Eehui's to bake on Sunday with the moony, chinny, jodie and chewy (:

(okay i wanted that to rhyme LOL.)

Haven't had the 4 of us together since Eehui's birthday? I think so. And I really missed them! It's nice that we got to hang around together and bake yummy cookies and brownies together :D

Sunday was an awesome day, because I worked with nobody I hated! Well, there are 3 people which I can't stand in the shop, and the great thing is that I didn't work with them that night.

It made everything so much awesome-r because the mood in the shop was jovial and peaceful.

I missed that kind of working environment and I wonder when will I get that chance again.

Out with Jacq on Monday to shop for yuens' present, and we walked around town trying so hard to find a suitable dress for yuens!

And it was always fun hanging out with her because we'd have stupid conversations and laugh out loud in public and make ourselves look like total idiots LOL.

Tuesday was borrrrrrrring. Hospital experience sucked big time. Hate the waiting.

I don't know how I am going to survive next Friday :/

Wednesday was a blast! I forgot to bring my phone though:/

Accounting paper, was considered a breeze? It wasn't as hard as I imagined la.

Then hung out with linghui, ele, wanleng, sammy, huiyi and gwen <3

Bugis-ed and Raffles City-ed. (: All in all, we spent ALOT on food, I guess it's just our hobby, eating good food and acting like piggies HAHAH! :D

Today was my dear Yuens' birthday, and I met up with Jacq to go to the icing room to make a cake for her! :D Pictures will be posted on FB when I feel like it, but the cake making was a success :D And jacq and I kept having stupid convos.

Stupid convo 1:

J: I text her brother, see she at home or not.

V: Orh, eh scarly she's out, then she's on the same bus as us now D:

J: EH WHAT IF THAT REALLY HAPPENS?

V: Then we'll say: "Hi Yuensin we're on the way to your house to give you a birthday surprise. You want to go up to your place first while we get ready?" :D

J: Then that will be so funny!

Stupid convo 2:

J: Eh my feet is 4 and a half leh! (waits expectantly for Vivian's reply)

V: Wah your feet can lose weight ah?! 0_0

And we started bursting out like idiots because it was so hilarious. Aiyah, all in all, we were just acting like kuku idiots, but we had a lot of fun :D

And when we went to her house, her Mum actually returned home! So we asked her mum to go in first hahaha. And she didnt really expect anything! (:

Glad she enjoyed her surprise <3

Chatted till damn late, before Jacq's dad came to pick us up.

Ohmy, I love them so much. :D

I realised how much I love my girlfriends, though all of them are from different cliques. I love them in different ways, and i love them for the happiness they bring to me <3

okay im a softie.

2010-05-29T01:50:00.000+08:00

this is a just for laughs :D

ah, i had sexy voice today.

Oh, and seriously, I think talking to the right person really helps. Amazingly, I saw tricia on the way home today, and I talked to her about the situation I am facing now in J8. After talking to her, I realised alot of things. And it's true that I shouldn't quit. Wouldn't that means that the other people that I am against have won the war? I won't let them win so easily.

There are still certain important decisions to make, but I will only make them after this hectic GSS period. Been ending work at 11 plus. Oh wells, at least I got double pay today (: Yay love tricia (:

And my throat feels terrible. I think I kinda shocked Yeesin on the phone just now LOL.

Okay, and I need to go study for Accounting soon. I told Laury I wanted an A for accounting muahahhaha (:

Okay, I think it's kinda impossible since I never really pay attention in lessons or lectures :/

i really miss that day (:

i really fell ill.

2010-05-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

damn depressed about yesterday ):
Had to leave halfway for ssm cos i was feeling faint and uncomfortable :/

And today, still abit headache and flu and cough :/
and when i called my shop to take leave for tomorrow, the ~~fucking bitch~~ scolded me over the phone.
WTH? i didnt come for the meeting, it's natural that i missed out some of the information right? As if it's MY FUCKING FAULT that my colleagues did not tell me what you said. They missed it out, not me. How was I supposed to know what you were going to cover especially when MC wasn't a topic NORMAL MANAGERS usually brought up during meetings. You didn't have to scold me that hard :( All I wanted to do was confirm if you needed an MC, and then you scold me. Seriously, ever since you came, I don't know if I'm able to actually find joy in working anymore. And I'm dreading the 19th June, since I have SA Orientation, and Im damn scared I have to work that day. Oh wells, if I really kena, then bo bian, need to pray if got hao xin ren can take over me or not. Or wait, there isn't any hao xin ren around in the fucking shop. Thanks alot, my days in J8 just gets worse and worse. Then how? Submit resignation? Thanks for spoiling my night, thanks alot. You really suck. Really suck. And I don't care if anyone sees this, because I'm just really upset with stuff going on now ):

Argh, that whole chunk is going to get me into trouble if anyone saw this :/
But what the heck, i'm just really pissed off :<

oh gosh, life's a bitch.

2010-05-24T21:56:00.001+08:00

I hope so. Really hope so. :/

I'm so tired now.
But somehow I can't get to sleep.
Yesterday was awesome, because I studied and koi-ed with Jodie, and had tauhuay with Kaleryn and Ruohan at night. For once, my sunday was work-less. And tauhuay session was LOL. oh wells, i missed having that much laughter (:

Sick today ):
And there are so many things to do. I keep telling myself about time management, and priority management, but nothing ever seems to get to me. I just want to go back to the holidays, being busy the way i like it. not like this.
i dread ssm, and all i can say is, i am thankful to have kind friends around in my ssm group, if not i would seriously die. Thanks everyone.

I desperately need the break, and I wanna go out and relax before the new term starts again! Movie anyone? :D

I'm really tired :/

2010-05-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

seriously, i don't know what I have been doing with my life.

School, CCA, Work. That's all.

I haven't been meeting up with my girls, be it 6teen or tension.

I haven't been nice to my body, because I'm skipping meals due to my hectic timetable, and I haven't been sleeping well. This sucks big time D:

I feel a sore throat developing, it's here already actually, and now I feel feverish :/

Wahhhhhhh, I suppose I need some chillax time.

But mid sem is coming, and there are so many tests coming up next week. It's so annoying.

Finally for once, I have a Sunday where I am totally free, but I still have to study >:(

ARGH, I feel damn pissed off with the situation now. Hmph, nothing i can do le luh ):

And, as the days draw nearer, I don't know how I'm going cope with the madness week.

~~I feel like an attention-deprived kid now. I feel invisible. :/~~

Grah colourless post=colourless life. ):

time time time

2010-05-20T01:38:00.000+08:00

oh damn, really dont have a lot of spare time nowadays ):

Crazy pile of stuffs building up, and there are so many things I want to do. ):

Ahhhhhhh, I really think I need an escape. But how?
psst, im happy for you :>

shopping :D

2010-05-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

shopping does help :D

After school today, met up with god and angel so that angel can go cotton on and buy stuff with my staff discount :D
she damn funny, buy already become super high (:
We spent a damn long time in montip and both bought a hairband and a ribbon clip.
I guess we're being too gay, got alot of same stuff in diff colours. HAHA!
Went to KFC, and chatted for a long time there (:
Yay, angel i love you too, god dont be jealous :D

Shopping seems to make stuff better haha! :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-05-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD D:

feel like going to the seaside and scream my lungs out.

i think i'd feel better that way.

i hate how wimpy i am, so cowardly and unable to speak my mind even im dying to say it.

This really sucks.

Oh wells.

This week's been rather monotonous.

School, CCA, Prof Test.

Barely any highlights, or none to mention of at all :/

Prof Test was okay, made a few mistakes here and there, and hopefully i passed.

Thursday trainings began from today, and i was happy drumming (:

Shopping with Angel tomorrow,

Still, i need my life to be more fun, and less emo-ness.

Try hard Vivian.

知足

2010-05-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

五月天 - 知足

怎么去拥有一道彩虹
怎么去拥抱一夏天的风
天上的星星笑地上的人
总是不能懂不能觉得足够

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

那天你和我那个山丘
那样的唱着那一年的歌
那样的回忆那么足够
足够我天天都品尝着寂寞

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

当一阵风吹来风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷而祝福而感动
终于你身影消失在人海尽头
才发现笑着哭最痛

如果我爱上你的笑容
要怎么收藏要怎么拥有
如果你快乐再不是为我
会不会放手其实才是拥有
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛

lazy to post.

2010-05-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I feel damn sian to post LOL.

but then, i realised my ultimate reason for having this blog is to record whatever happened in my life, so i wont forget them.

I realised my memory is failing me nowadays D:

Wednesday morn wasn't a great day for me.

Went to hospital with mummy and daddy abt sissy's stuff, and yeah, sucks to be at the hospital.

~~Whatever.~~

School was alright, then went for cca with more new juniors (:

Well, debrief was sort of...okay?

And a bunch of us decided to go for dinner even though we ended at 11pm.

So we had to cab home LOL.

Thursday was a long long day. Had school, then went down to NJ to meet Jodie for moony's concert (:

Hahahah, then Jodie and I started acting stupid on the way back to NJ from Swirl.

I HAD SWIRL'S PEANUT BUTTER ICE CREAM! SINCE PRE-OS TIMES! god, it's been so long!

Yayayay, thinking about it makes me happy, i want to eat it again ):

But it's allllll the way at Bukit Timah-.-

Anyways, then met the rest, Eehui and Chinpei :D

I fell asleep during the concert, classical is really not my thing D:

But the guitar part was not bad (:

I was practically blind since the concert cos I had to remove both my contacts due to extreme dryness ):

Stupid me forgot to bring my specs.

And abit jialat la, needed chinny to guide me along lol!

But after the concert, as we were walking out, ChinPei and I started singing campfire songs eg:

“I’m a bow-legged chicken, I’m a knock-kneed hen;
Haven’t been so happy since i don’t know when;
I walk with a wiggle and a jiggle and a squawk;
Doing the tennessee wig walk!

Put your knees together and your feet apart;
Tuck your arms under just for luck;
Bend down low and you’re ready to start;
As you wiggle and you wobble like a baby duck!

I’m a bow-legged chicken, I’m a knock-kneed hen;
Haven’t been so happy since i don’t know when;
I walk with a wiggle and a jiggle and a squawk;
Doing the tennessee wig walk!”

Hahahah, this song is such a fun one to dance with :D

Then after that, we started singing IJ spirit and danced the family dance along the main road at the bus stop. LOL, damn funny!

I really love my girls! <3

Friday was okay, went back to school to help out for 20th anniversary.

And then I realised, TP students are like hungry ghosts.

We had a buffet, and the first thing everyone did was to chiong out and take a mountain of food :D

Awesome much!

Worked at night, and had a skin allergy from all the dust in the fitting room.

Eew. And we worked till damn late :/

Celebrated Mummy's day on Saturday after work.

Watched Ip Man 2 and it was veryyyyyyyy niceeeeeeeee :D

Then went to Jalan Sultan to eat salted chicken, but the coffee shop was closed for renovations, so we ended up eating claypot rice at golden mile food complex (:

Went to Kuan's house afterwards and slept like a pig there LOL.

Today, was a long day of work, but surprisingly, time seemed to pass by damn fast. I think it's cause I'm okay with everyone working today (:

Bought new clothes and shoes today for only 30 bucks (Y)

Hahahah, working at Cotton On has its perks (:

i wanna go on a date. with someone.

i dont know whats wrong.

2010-05-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

Every week, my mondays and tuesdays seem very screwed up.

And the best part is, I know's it's my problem and i can't blame anyone for it.

I guess for Monday, it's enough said for salvo-ians, and i don't really want to say anything more.

All I can say is, we seemed to have lost something along the way, and we need to come together, to find it back. I don't know what to say actually... but perhaps all I can say is, I will try my best. It's not just empty talk. It's a promise, not to anyone, but to myself.

SSM feels like an adrenaline rush, exciting, yet somehow dangerous at the same time.

Damn scary. Yet fun at the same time.

Oh wells.

But I love meeting my H12 girls, we finally had a full ten people attendance today eating at technos :D

Love you girls, because you girls make me happy (:

With a heavy heart for so many stuff in life, I don't know what to expect from other things.

5th May tomorrow, and I dont know if I should go to the hospital with Mum and Dad. :/

I dont like the vibes a hospital gives me. Urgh.

when things start to change.

2010-05-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I really need an outlet to vent my frustrations.

And an escapade to run away from everything.

maybe one day will do.

but i cannot find any day that can be that one day. argh.

Performed at Shang-ri La Hotel for some Aljunied GRC thing today.

Super atas I tell you.

And the place is super nice (Y)

Performance was sort of compromised with the very very very limited space on the stage they set up in their Ballroom. And i bloody made a mistake.

And I know I shouldnt keep crying over the little mistakes I made, I should learn from it instead.

And a lesson learnt from Salvo.

" When life gives you apples, find ways to smash them up."

Clearly demonstrated by Ruohan, Marshall and Edmund who used various ways to smash their apples up. We had like 3 bags of apples given by the organiser today. And we even had an apple fight. LOL.

Anyways, it was fun la (: We had lots of fun watching the boys play soccer while jeopardising our lives by standing in the middle of nowhere while they're playing.

Ohemgee, watching E.U on Channel 856 now.

Think youyou in the show is damn brave. Wish I had her guts.

been thinking about these 2 songs :D

2010-04-29T01:45:00.001+08:00

梁静茹 - 暖暖
都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律

都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢
毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳熟悉的安全感

分享的汤我们俩吃汤吃一个碗
左心房暖暖的好保暖

我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
他从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要

都可以随便的
你说的我都愿意去
回忆里满足的旋律

都可以是真的
你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢
你手掌的厚实感
什麽困难都觉得有希望

我哼着歌你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛

你自己却不知道
真心的对我好
不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
他从心里暖暖的
你比自己更重要
我有希望变更好

蔡卓妍 - 知己

一个人冒着雨光一座城市
一个背包能装下多少心事
我闭上眼睛独自走过回忆

很害怕因为自己太过真实
和身边认识的人背道而驰
我睁开眼睛找回我失而复得的勇气

是你让我相信未来的路
偶尔孤孤单单却不孤独
是你让我有种久违了的暖暖幸福

是你让我相信酸酸的苦
只要永远能懂就不在乎
是你让我看到另外一个自己
每次你心中跌倒
总是你站在我这边和我一起仰起头微笑

每次你心中跌倒
总是你第一个伸出双手给我大大的拥抱
大大的拥抱

是你让我相信未来的路
偶尔孤孤单单却不孤独
是你让我有种久违了的暖暖幸福

是你让我相信酸酸的苦
只要永远能懂就不在乎

是你让我看到另外一个自己
每次你间中跌倒总是你第一个伸出双手
给我大大的拥抱
大大的拥抱

aches.

2010-04-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

Havent touched this space for almost 72 hours straight!

I figured that I wont use comp on Mondays and Tuesdays anymore D:

Hahahah, so time for an update.

Monday, okay lor, got to know more people in class.

Had BESE where I had to wear formal attire, with blazer, and Idk whether to buy a new blazer for better results :/

Then APEL, then salvo.

And I swear, it's damn terrible to not eat before cca. Hate the feeling of almost fainting, with ears buzzing and my vision going fuzzy.

Very grateful to yeesin, lynette and ruohan who cabbed home with me all the way (:

Thanks for everything people <3

Yesterday was SSM.

My pinky literally turned pink from carrying the ceramic plates.

And my arms are like super sore till now O:

But it was sort of fun (:

Learned how to cork, foil, and uncork a wine bottle :D

Then had dinner with my H12 girls minus LINGHUI WHO WENT FOR TOUCHRUGBY ):

Indian food is yummeh! (:

Then went to tamp central with kelly, huiyi, gwen and ele to buy essentials for SSM and BESE before heading home. K.O-ed at 1045 cos i was too sleepy LOL.

AND I WAS A WIMP TODAY.____.

i went to get my typhoid shot at mummy's workplace.

I wimpered and made alot of noise like a kid.

I did not realise that the clinic wasnt soundproof.

and it so happened that it was a good day for the clinic today and there were lots of people.

I FEEL SO HUMILIATED.
ohblah.

Salvo today was... okay la.

Performing at Shang-ri La Hotel on Friday leh, ohmytian.

Then uh, actually training was okay la, must buck up lor.

GAMBATTE everyone!
Had dinner with marcus, chiawei, liyen, kelvin, ruohan, edmund, lynette and charmainekoh (:

i chionged my dinner in like 10-15 mins?

Spicy plus hot, not a good combi to gulp down sia.

Oh and plus 1.5 cups of teh bing.

My tummy feels terrible now ):

Too bad, debrief ended too late, then we ended up eating at 1115 when and caught the last bus at 1145. heeeee (:

Okay, I realised I should sleep soon since Im starting school at 9 tmr.

And somehow Im dreading 5th May.

sort of like judgement day for my family D:

plus i have to pay for my overseas trip that day. lol.

and exactly a month after. fml. time really flies too fast for me :'<

CCA Recruitment and bday celebrations!

2010-04-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

Thursday and Friday were the next 2 days of CCA recruitment, and it was fun, i managed to learn the competition score, and other random rhythms (:

Love Salvo lots lots <3

Sad thing, i keep kena bullied by everyone ):

I KNOW I BLACK LA, NO NEED KEEP SAYING DE TYVM :< hahahaha!

one more nickname to my list, niceeeeee (Y)

Friday was gaychiawei's bday! So we went to Fish and Co. with peiyin, karen, bryden, kelvin, liyen, chiawei, smay, charmainekoh, jessica, kaleryn, sijia, sher, ruohan and edmund to celebrate his bday and hahhahah he was made to wear a joker's hat and stand on a chair while we sing his bday song!

We had loads of fun and laughter that day la :D

HAPPY BDAY GAY! :D

Then yesterday was Eehui's bday celebration! Her mum treated us to timsum at peach garden, then we went walk walk :D

Gave her a mini surprise and yeah hope she have a great birthday (:

Happy Birthday Eehui!

Many birthdays this week! (:

But Im dreading Mondays and Tuesdays now ):

HELP ME!

I need to pigout, like seriously.

poof.

不开心

2010-04-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

I think I really have mood issues :/

Rahh, maybe i'll start with what happened today.

Went back to school early to help out for cca recruitment. Had fun with everyone there (:

And I kena hit by the ultimate frisbee-.-

Stupid Neo kept laughing at me when I told him that. Haiz.

Then met up with laury and yuling for TTO lecture before printing the massive amt of notes. and guess what, i'm not even done yet. Still have OTCM Tutorial to go. Omfg, I hate killing trees :/

Continued learning lang today, and really, the feeling of exasperation kept coming when i couldnt seem to get anything right.

I swear I was almost close to tears because I really dont understand why cant i grasp a simple concept D:

Thanks to everyone who showed their concern, I'm sorry for the outburst D:

Just that I feel that so many stuffs are happening at the wrong time... ):

And lol, at the end of training, stupid edmund and caiyan come and scare me O:

walau, i freaking shock tio.

Argh. Oh wells, resigned to fate alrdy -.-

went opposite school for dinner before going home (:

and i guess i need to rest well, because i swear, lack of sleep isn't making me any better. And there are so many things not done yet.

Feel so exasperated... :/

SSM killed me.

2010-04-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

Well, nothing much to update, except that I had a great time with my girls on Saturday, and spent Sunday with Daddy at SSC plus working at night (:

Monday was the official first day of school. Went town to settle stuffs before meeting the girls in school (: I really missed stoning around with them in school!

Had APEL, then Salvo.

Was feeling damn unwell during salvo, i felt super dizzy can ):

Celebrated yeesin and chiawei's birthday, and we gave yeesin her bday present, a board and a BLUE DRESS :D hahahahha:D

went home before they finished cutting cake cos i really buay tahan alrdy, then i needed my rest for SSM today.

SSM was a killer. The grooming standards were, omfg, and the morning started out really bad :/

But oh wells, the rest of the day was okay, with the orientation and whatever... just that walking around in heels was terrible. I ALMOST DIED. infact, my feet is still hurting from just now :/

12 more weeks to go, ohmytian. Pray that I survive.

And worse thing, I'm really sick now, with the freaking sore throat, flu and on-and-off fever. sucks big time :/

Argh, I really need my rest.

Regatta performance

2010-04-17T03:05:00.001+08:00

Today was the day that we performed for TP's Regatta at Bedok Reservoir.

Moved drums over before having lunch there, then had a rehearsal. My shoes were literally burning, and the drum is like HOT.

Went back to change, and went to stand by at Bedok Reservoir at 3 plus.

Performance was... okay I guess. Personally, I think I did better than concert.

Then moved back the drums, luckily it didnt rain. and good thing was, it didnt rain during our performance! (:

Then debriefed, changed, and cleaned, and went for dinner at T1 (:

Oh, and I came to realise that, the bullying towards me will never stop ): LOL!

We had to keep moving around because of the stupid rain >:(

Then we walked around before taking 22 together with Sher to go Kuan's house.

And teehee, Kuan is very nice (Y)

When I said I was hungry, he just got up and cooked noodles for me! So nice right :D

And he deserves the koi i bought him! (:

And he bully me in Band Hero ):

But it's okay :D

Lol, I think I seem retarded here LOL.

rain rain, go away!

2010-04-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

Had rehearsal today for TP Regatta.

Was surprised to meet the Business Orientation Performance people who were on their way to school in the interchange, so we took 23 together (:

Moved 12 drums from studio to Bedok Reservoir, and i really tried to carry a drum on my own, but uh, i failed terribly :/

Okay, so we practiced there, and then it was so fucking hot that we all started asking Marshall to use his Godlee powers so that it wont be so warm.

Even the drum stands and drum were heating up under the sun!

Then practiced a bit with the dance people, and practiced actions and rhythm and what not.

And while we were slacking, and attempting to play other scores like competition score, kelvin's score, xuan etc, lo and behold! It started raining!

So we moved the drums out of the stage in LIGHTNING speed (note the pun) in like less than a minute, and we soon had to think of ways to move the drums back to the studio since the rehearsal couldn't go on and we cannot leave our drums there.

Well, so first Edmund and Chiawei ran in the rain to get garbage bags and plastic sheets from school to cover the drums before they wet the drums and drum stands.

Then Ruohan, Bryden, Marshall they all started covering the drum stands with waterproof bags and bring them back to school.

A buggy came to help us move like 4 drums back to school, and then someone went to borrow this tentage to cover the trolley to move the rest if the 8 drums back to school.

Hahahah, we had like 4 people carrying the corners, to cover the trolley! LOL!

We took so long, that the rain kinda stopped after ard an hour?

Haha, but it was impressive that we were so efficient, and united to get everything done together (:

When back in school, we ended debrief, then started drying the plastic sheets and waterproof bags so that we could return them to SAA.

Ended everything arnd 8 and went opposite for dinner!

And I seriously can go "bang wall" (quoted from Karen!)

Edmund and Ruohan keep bullying me ):

Now I have countless nicknames and persona given by the 2 of them!

Oh wells, I bring happiness to people because I have funny reactions when they tease me LOL.

That's what Ruohan said la, I shall just believe that to make me happier (:

Homed with Ruohan and Chiawei, and I got nothing else to say, except that I ren ming le, they will never stop teasing me LOL.

Hahaha, I think I should sleep earlier, it's going to be a long day tomorrow!

2010-04-14T13:34:00.001+08:00

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

- Pocketful Of Sunshine (Natasha Bedingfield)

someone get me out of this mess.

2010-04-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

Everything is totally screwed.

Why did I choose to come Poly when a JC education is so much cheaper?
Why did I enter such a costly diploma when there are so many others to choose from?
Why am I such a spendthrift?
Why can't I be more hardworking and worked more when I could?

I'm afraid, but I can't show it to my family.
I don't want them to worry anymore.
My sister's condition, the prospective bills that will come.
I've had it.
And the only good thing about writing out all these here, is knowing that they will never read it.
Fuck everything.

Party in the USA (this is just to spite gwen :D)

2010-04-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

Met up with my dear H12 girls today <3

ele, emma, linghui, sammy, huiyi, laury, gwen and wanleng :D

it's awesome because it's been a long time since we could all meet up and hang out tgt (:

Went to Aljunied and Sammy handed out her cheesecake brownies and muffins (:

Then we went to collect our uniforms before heading to Golden Mile Food Centre to makan! I loved the food, esp Belgium Waffles! <3

Headed to Suntec to shop around for SSM necessities, but we ended up shopping (:

Got our lipstick and stuff, and had Carl's Jr (: Food was yummy! (Y)

Kinda sad that we are splitting class la, but... I'm sure we will meet up for food sometimes, won't we? :D

im in 2h05

2010-04-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

anyone there? i know laury is :D

went back to sch for SA meeting for recruitment. And I saw Zana babe in sch cos she needed to submit stuff! <3
Then went home before going to school again for salvo.
I'm blogging because I'm happy to be in the same class as Laury :D

品冠-我以为

2010-04-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为
我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你
已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究
你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心
你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

liked this song after hearing it on xia yi zhan xing fu <3

last week of hols -gulps-

2010-04-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

Sprained my neck on Friday ):

So i ended up not going for work. Instead, I went to Kuan's place with Mummy, and the awesome thing? THEY HAVE PS3! so there's: BAND HERO <3

GH and I were like 2 goondus who were trying to fiddle with the thing cos we didnt know how to have 2 people playing together or smth like that LOL.

BUT IT WAS FUN! i loved it! Im so going to go there with Mummy more often to play :D

Then Saturday was spent by watching Huang Cheng 2010 at VCH with jacq, jiahao, and yisze (:

and a whole lot of greens!

oh and i saw songsim and shushien! like omg can! hahhahahaha:D

then also saw the ten huahui-ians in huangcheng: peilin, jinghan, yuensin, honghwee, zhiwei, kairou, huier, shiting, weimin and wenyi :D

so proud of them! (:

then i went back with the greenies to meet mum they all for fishhead soup :D

OH AND I ATE HONG SHAO PAI GU.

TO HUAHUI PEOPLE: IT'S JUST PAIGU WANG = TANG CU PAIGU. THEY ARE ALL THE SAME THING. SWEET AND SOUR PAIGU!

TEEHEE, BUT IT'S OUR SHARED MEMORY RIGHT????? :D

was literally bored to tears in eryi's house afterwards-.-

Met jacq this morning for breakfast and chatted <3

had work, and i had an interesting insight on certain signs you see around in singapore.

1) Men who loves their ~~sluttish~~ pretty looking FOREIGN wives/mistresses have alot of ka-chings and they don't care how much the item is. As long as the lady wants it, they will pay for it.

2) Maids in Singapore really work too hard. I think they just want to get back at us by messing my shop and act like divas. Maybe that's how their employer treats them. I'm sorry, but it's not really my problem right? Hmph.

Okay, nuff' said. I got nothing else le. It's interesting to see stuff like this during work cos working is too boring. HEE :D

coincidences;

2010-04-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

spent half of the day rotting at home because chervyn went home early this morning and could only meet me in the evening. LOL.

finished watching xia yi zhan xing fu alrd! (:

Next shows: 学警狙击 and 紫玫瑰! (:

Then met up with chervyn in the evening to go town (:

went to 313's ramen play to makan, service sucked, but food was quite okay (:

and we had our always must eat: yami yogurt!

and we found something value for money!

Banana boat! 4 bucks and it's enough for the 2 of us to eat (:

I LOVE THE FRUITY PEBBLES ON TOP :D

hahahha then we walked around and chatted and yeah i love her <3

and i saw many people around today sia!

Sheila, Brent, Kuan, Wendy and Karen! Like alot of coincidences sia. HAHA:D

Sian, work again tomorrow-.-

i like this picture :D

2010-04-08T03:13:00.000+08:00

Finally im blogging with my OWN LAPTOP :D

2010-04-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Went to collect my lappy on Sunday after work (:

Work at J8 Mega for the first time, it was okay, but definitely it's different.

There are a lot of things I don't know and I feel like a noob ): Oh blah O:

Monday was a great day (:

Went to TTSH with Mum and Dad to pei Daddy for his regular checkup. Then we went to Old HongKong Kitchen at Square2 to makan! (:

The food was really awesome, and I loved it so much that I got to eat alone with Mummy and Daddy (: Teehee :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY <3

Went for salvo afterwards, and learnt more of lang.

Was kinda upset with myself, because didnt manage to play well at all that day ):

Marina Barrage on Tuesday with the kaleryn, jean, sijia, felicia, peiyin, caiyan, marshall, edmund, jessica, cheryl, charmaine, ruohan, bryden and hadi :D

We went kite flying!

Haha, I went to buy this kite with a jiaobin, and it's super prominent in the sky cos it's green and has a funny looking face LOL.

But my kite is super zai.

My string got tangled with 4 kites over the course of my whole kite flying process.

And, my string cut the other kites :D I felt damn bad because I cut some stranger's, Caiyan's, Jessica's and Jean's kite! D: VERY SORRY!

We had a lot of fun eating too (: I brought like 70 sausages lor! LOL!

Then had a great time talking to Sijia, Felicia and Jean (:

I didnt know that I had so much in common with sijia and felicia! Hahahaha:D

And there were alot of stars in the night sky! (:

I was very happy to lie down there and just staring at the stars (:

Had fun camwhoring before we took the bus at 1107pm to get to the MRT.

Trained home with ruohan and edmund and i reached home at 1215pm zzzzzz. Super late lor ):

Had work this morning, and then went for salvo early for regetta training (:

It was kinda cool because we are collaborating with TPDE (:

Then they had this quite cool moves for our last part. Zai sia! HAHAHAH:D

Learnt more of lang, today was slightly better than last training bah.

I should practice at home more often(:

Dinnered opp sch at the prata shop.

And neo kept bullying me because he said something damn bad ): AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Hahahahah, but it was kinda funny la, and yeah, dinner was fun today (:

Homed with lynette, yeesin, chiawei and ruohan! Very long time never take 969 back with so many people le! (:

Haiz, Chervyn never pick up my calls, nor did she reply my msgs ):

I want to go out tomorrow! D:

Tsk :/

chalet!

2010-04-03T23:12:00.001+08:00

Went for salvo chalet for the past 3 days (:

Wednesday had training at 10am!

Then we went to makan and went over to the chalet where some of us napped while waiting for the rest to come (:

Actually first day i didnt do much la, i went to meet russell with yeesin and had a super in depth htht (:

Second day, actually i didnt sleep the whole night.

After bathing, I went to market with eric rh and kal to buy the bbq food after macs breakfast :D

Aunties FTW!

Went back, and got totally knocked out.

Woke up in the afternoon to catch How To Train Your Dragon, then had lunch.

Slacked abit before the bbq officially started! (: I like bbq-ing for other people LOL:D

Played games afterwards and we totally spammed paint on clement.

I felt bad though afterwards cos he looked damn tong ku ):

OH AND WE TIO PRANKED BY MARC AND CLEMENT.

They came in slamming the door one after another and started shouting at each other because the couldnt get the bbq pit. Then all of us sibei stunned.

Suddenly, they burst out laughing and said it was only an April Fool's Joke LOL. Totally got all of us la!

Gave out the souvenirs to seniors, and really really really must credit jessica and edmund for making the stuff! Really xin ku ni men le!

Went to play chinaman game after bathing, hahahah and i spammed a lot of drinks sia. Luckily it wasnt alcohol, or i'd have died.

Went to sleep at 5 plus, and i got drawn on the face with red lipstick by karen and got red marker on my toe nails by marc and karen LOL.

Then it was time for pack up and we went Just Acia to makna before heading home (:

Salvo is always fun with the crazy salvo people (: You guys are really damn awesome <3

Met up with 6teen today and spent the whole day watching videos on youtube (: It was funny la :D and had fun with jodie they all <3

Met up with kal for tauhuay afterwards (:

although there are many things that may sound unpleasant to the ear, i understand what you are trying to say is all for my own good. thanks for saying all those, and i will reflect upon myself and try not to repeat in the future.

and really, i should stop being confused, and learn that it's time to give up before more damage is done. after all, the only one who will get hurt, is myself.
and yes, i really miss you, but i will not let myself fall deeper.
all im asking for, is a chance for us to reconcile what we had.

im back to blog again!

2010-04-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

I'm using my daddy's lappy now while waiting for my hair to dry so i can slp. Hahaha.

Well, picking up from whr i left off.

i also dk why i put here la, just that i wna record what i have been doing. forgive me if i am being boring... ):

18/3-Watched lovely bones with rh, wasnt a bad show, though it was kinda draggy towards the end.

19/3-Watched Alice in Wonderland with Jacq and Jessie.

And I swear I am in love with the show because I think it's really cool, like Johnny Depp as Mad Hatter, he was good (:

20/3- Watched qihang with the huahui people, and many memories came flooding back as we watched the performances put up by the juniors.

I am really proud of them, and also happy that they worked hard to bring qihang back after 2 years.

The best part was that they invited the seniors to go on stage to sing qihang song during curtain call, and that was like awesome!

I was really happy because I really missed that feeling so much!

And i was glad to be able to catch up with the juniors and seniors alike, and that itself is awesome le (: Huahui, always a major part of my life (:

21/3-Slacked at home because I had nth to do :D

22/3-Training resumed after concert, and I was happy because finally got to drum after one week's break :D

23/3- Went out for seoul garden with kal, sher, edmund, marshall, caiyan, jessica, amanda, cheryl, jiamin, marc, clement, marcus, sijia, jean and karen to celebrate for concert :D

And we stayed there for 4 hours straight, busy cooking here and there and having loads of fun (:

I really like this picture cos i think we look nice in it (: HAHAHA:D

Okay, then after eating like pigs, some went off while 10 of us went to watch kidnapper!

Hahaha we smelt so much of bbq that we could smell it the instant we entered the theatre!

I liked the show, but I feel that the tactics the kidnapper used to torture the boy was abit too extreme.

Cried not because the father went all out to save the boy, but it was the action parts and the way the director filmed it made me feel uncomfortable lor.

But for a Singaporean movie, I think it was a good try and change from all that Jack Neo movies.

24/3-Went to iluma and ps with sher and yeesin to go buy people's present (: hahahah had quite a lot of fun running around so many different places :D

Then went for training where we revisited the first score!

Lol stupid rh keep bullying me cos he kept saying that i look like that i was dancing ):

Oh blahs, but it was nice playing that score with my grouping i think (:

25/3-Went to minds cafe with my H12 daughters, sammy wanleng gwen and huiyi :D

huiyi damn funny, even when she lives in the area ah, she still can take the wrong bus with stefan, and she ended up coming 2 hours late! hahahah:D

but then we had alot of fun playing the board games there, and practically went crazy playing this game called Ugly Doll! (:

Went to Tamp mall afterwards to eat ljs, and we talked alot till arnd 10 (:

I like how we are, and it's always fun hanging out with this group of girls <3

26/3-Went to NYJC to watch baiyungang with rh because jacq last min ps me. LOL. And went there to support shermi who was acting a major role (:

hahahah saw the huahui juniors and chinpei and yinyee as well :D

The performance was nice, and I feel that they had a very interesting way to bring out the issues they wanted to bring out (: And yes, some of the stuffs were really hilarious :D

picture with the huahui juniors :D

27/3- Met up with 6teen minus chinny for awhile before heading to city hall to meet my lengqiji babes, mons, fiona, shermi, jacq, chuwen, jieying, qiaoer, kally and qing! (:

Had dinner at pizza hut and we spent alot of time bitching and chatting because alot of us havent saw each other in ages!

Was kinda sad though, that honghwee xiuqi jenny and serene couldnt come ):

Hope they can come for the next outing :D

28/3- A day spent with my jacq dumbdumb :D

We went to amkhub to eat and watched Whip It!

I think it was one of the nicest movie I've watched! I think that Drew Berrymore is damn cool, and wow i loved that show so much! (:

Went to JB with jacq and her family in the evening to eat jap buffet.

Man, the food was GOOD.

and i loved it laaa, i ate a lot i swear! Hahahah, 2 buffets in one week, confirm fat de! LOL.

29/3- Went to icekimo with amanda, cheryl and yeesin to have ice cream (:

Well as amanda and cheryl were late, yeesin and i happily went to eat prata at the prata house! (:

Then after training, i went back to yishun to meet up with yuensin for our bday surprise for jacq (:

Im glad that she was happy for her birthday with the surprise we gave her (:

30/3- Happy Birthday to Jacq! :D

Went to work for set up, opened up hundreds of clothes, hung up hundreds of clothes, and a few dozen shoes. ohemgee laaaaa, it was so dusty and dirty i swear!

But oh wells, got cute guy working hahhaha :D

anyways, kinda unhappy with the working environment actually.

Hope it'll be better when we open officially. (:

Hahahaha I shall just end here, and continue with the Salvo chalet update after I wake up (:

Going to sleep now, good afternoon! :D

3rd wk into the holidays!

2010-03-18T00:42:00.001+08:00

well im going to blog with my phone again:)
Ystd was awesome, hung out with the salvo people, and i tell you, thr were TWENTY FIVE PEOPLE. Here goes:
Kal, yeesin, sher, edmund, jessica, caiyan, marshall, bryden, sijia, yuanwei, jeant, kelvin, wanyi, charmaine.c, charmaine.k, ziying, kaixin, amanda, ruohan, eric, clement, soengmay, ruth, lynette and meeee! Cool or what? Hahahah, then soengmay and kaixin didnt join us for the movie up in the air, so end up there were 23 ppl watching the movie tgt! I think it,s damn awesome having so many people tgt!
Well i personally feel that up in the air was not bad, but guess some ppl felt that it was boring luh... But oh wells:) then we had botak jones opposite cine before gg home with rh, ys, lynchan and amanda. The rest went for tauhuay at selegie road thr.
Hmmmm today was basically slacked away, but then went for tauhuay with rh last min, so i managed to get out of the house! Yay tauhuay was nice:) late night tauhuays seem exceptionally good:) well im super free today cos my work got cancelled luh:( damn sian, but suan le, tauhuay beats it all lol.
i think im liking my phone cos it's so easy to go online and blog here hehheh:) looks like i'll be fine without my lappy! :) though my posts are going to be colourless and pictureless:)

time to blog.

2010-03-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

For the past week, it's been busy, filled with laughter, tears, and many other emotions and experiences.

For the last week, everyday has been dedicated to training for the concert, including a training camp, which was fun as well.

spending everyday in the audi, trying to put the whole concert together, i am glad to say that found smth that i thought that i've lost for 2 years.

Being back on that stage, i immensely enjoyed myself. Despite the mistakes, despite the little things that made me upset, but the 2 weeks of training and the concert: GENESIS, had made everything worthwhile.

Thanks to salvo for giving me this thing that i thought i've lost, and definitely throughout the past few weeks, i've become closer with more people (:

salvo, one big family <3

Many thanks to Jodie, Chinny and Moony for coming down to support me, as well as my family who came down to support me (: Your support was so important to me, and thanks for everything, to the people i love <3

The day after concert was really random. Met up with xiaoxiao, marcus, kaleryn and sher to discuss abt the thailand trip thing. turns out we all are not going anymore due to the thailand riots.

ruohan came to join us afterwards, and we ended up shopping arnd in 313 LOL.

randomly decided to eat tauhuay at selegie thr (:

we walked all the way okayy!

then walked all the way to suntec to pei marcus to meet marc thr for it show. hahahha, it was quite alot of walking for a day.

then the 4 of us, rh, kal, sher and i decided to go it fair for fun, the girls managed to buy some stuffs. i didnt get anything lol. but i saw huiyi and stefan who was working at the it fair LOL.

homed with rh on 857, which was fairly unpleasant because the ride was so squeezy. luckily we had seats (:

Slacked Sunday away, but went for dinner at Jln Sultan with family. salted chicken was like awesome ttm <3

Today was slack too, met up with marcus because we figured that we havent met up in a long long time. treated him to lunch as a really belated bday present, and he pei-ed me to funan.

ahhh, my motherboard crashed again ):

have to leave my lappy thr again.

oh wells, at least the person who was servicing my comp was cute. hahahha (:
walked around funan's challenger with marcus and i can only say that: guys will always be guys. i spent most of the time waiting for him because he was happily playing with the demo games-.-

took the bus home arnd 6, and napped throughout the whole journey (:

using daddy's lappy now, and having problems uploading the sentosa pictures. the salvo concert pictures are up alrddy though! (:

YAY like finally(:

and meeting up with salvo people tmr! YAY :D cant wait! shall bring cam again :D

blogging with phone now

2010-03-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

lol i'm blogging with my phone now as i found out how to go on wifi with my new e63 :)
Ahhh, need to go funan to get my lappy repaired, and i will upload pictures as soon as i get my lappy back! I owe a lot of pictures and updates over the past 2 weeks, with all the hectic training and not to forget, our concert:)
Will update soon, i promise :) hahahah i think only jacq will bother whether i update or not lol. Hahaha okay, i'm off to watching transformers on channel 5! Ciao! :)

sunburnt+tired.

2010-03-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

hahahah i havent blogged in a long time because i too tired for the past few days alrd-.-

Worked early in the morning to help pack up at j8 body for renovations. though it was only for one and a half hours, but i guess it was a time well spent with these people (:

Met up with yeesin on the train to go sentosa with the salvo people, marshall, caiyan, kaleryn, jessica, edmund, peiyin and felicia.

We had loads of fun bumming around in the water, and i can tell you we are all super sunburnt!

Was as red as a lobster LOL!

Then kelvin came to join us too (:

Played a little volleyball which was FAIL, but overall it was still quite fun :D

Went to sing k with yeesin at bedok with yuanwei, sher, amanda and wanyi (: We're so going to go Teo Heng one day because it's going to be more fun (:

Training for the past 2/3 days was alright, but the first day got 1.6km run. So I felt that I practically died due to the fact that i havent been running for the past year. LOL.

Tomorrow still have to run ):

Nothing much here and there, just that training is becoming a LAN shop cum library, with people gaming and reading while waiting to train in the scores they are in.

And I'm peeeeeeeling like nobody's business. My face is in patches now >:(

And anyone who wants to come for salvo's concert, lemme know okay? (:

12 March, 7.30pm, TP Auditorium One, Tickets at 6 bucks :]

thanks to jessica to lemme use her lappy to blog during training (:

2010-02-28T01:39:00.000+08:00

i havent been blogging because i was sick over the past few days ):

Micro paper was alright, made a few careless mistakes here and there though, but ohwells, i think it's okay (:

Had Swensens at Northpoint with the girls minus linghui.

We spent like 2 hours there eating and chatting, talking about our secondary sch days, then orientation, then throughout this ay...

hahhahaha we are damn cool :D

Bummed around at my house, doing our own stuffs actually, basically we were like gambling?

hahahah! and ele was going around tying french plaits for everyone (:

so cute right? :D

Went out with the girls again, ele, huiyi, gwen, wanleng, kelly! I liked our spontaniety i swear!

Arranged to eat Fish and Co Express at Ehub, but we ended up eating superdog.

Was bowling at Ehub, decided to go Tamp Safra instead.

On the way to Safra, decided to drop off at Salvation Army to do a lil' shopping.

Bowling at Tamp Safra, decided to go Ikea for dinner!

How random was that day! (: But i liked it, it was really fun!

Hahaha, and stefan and rayson came to join us at Ikea.

Ohmy, if sammy was thr, the whole family would be present HAHA:D

Met up with salvo ppl on Friday for Suki Sushi Buffet (:

with chiawei, liyen, caiyan, marshall, jessica, edmund, yeesin, kaleryn and of course me! (:

Ate alot, and hahahha we made a hell lot of noise!

And I guess, i always get suaned in my face by them!

We went to cityhall afterwards to meet amanda, soengmay, lynette, kelvin and charmaine koh to watch valentine's day (:

yes i watched it again, it was worth meeting the hot guys all over again ^^

tauhuayed at geylang with edmund, kelvin, charmaine koh and amanda before bus-ing home (:

Tauhuay makes me happy!

And i suddenly miss the chongpang tauhuay >:(

Worked today was not bad.

Got to know this girl called melody who was from wisma, and she's going to TP too (:

Niceeeee, and got talk abit la.

Today was my official last day at J8 Body ):

From now on, I'm going to be part of J8 Mega, which i am still a little reluctant to acknowledge ):

boohoo.

wazzzzzup!

2010-02-27T00:35:00.001+08:00

S.H.E-天灰

2010-02-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

S.H.E-天灰

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

I LIKE THIS SONG (Y)

TOE MAY TOE!

2010-02-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

wahahahah my latest laugh :D

HAVE A GOOD LAUGH :D sick now, shall blog again soon (:

'i forgot to study'

2010-02-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

OB paper today was more or less okay. no stunner questions. at least as i perceive it. hahah, perception :]

studied with kal and caiyan today.

left early cos got no mood to mug.

spent my evening playing game. grah, it's bad to be addicted to a game prior to an exam-.-

ohwells, i will flip through again bahhhh, i still want my A for econs though i know im not moving in that direction-.-

looking forward to post examination activities :]

wave of disappointment.

2010-02-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

though i should be studying for OB now,

but i decided to blog now, because of that really lousy feeling in my chest ):

i know i shouldn't be feeling this, but i can't help feeling the disappointment received today.

one after another.

i can't blame anyone for it, it's the circumstances, but i really can't help this feeling.

I don't know what's wrong with me now >:(

studied today with kal, caiyan, yeesin and edmund in school today.

ended up talking with the girls hahahah before going for dinner (:

grah, a stupid cockroach is stopping me from entering the kitchen ):

poof. okay, i should get back to studying soon, and sleep earlier tonight :]

study-udy-udy

2010-02-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

went to eehui's ystd (: saw chinpei after idk how loooooong!

but sad that jodie didnt come ):

loads of catching up and updates, and well, i guess we were all too tired, ended up taking a nap at her house hahahah.

dinnered with chinny with a htht(: love her sooooo much!

today was alright, went over to kaleryn's place to study with yeesin and edmund, then went to fuchun cc to watch a community perf by zingo.

had dinner with kal and ed before taking the bus home (:

glad that i studied quite a bit, and more studying tomorrow!

ohgosh, mugger spirit! (:

"I'd Do Anything"-Simple Plan

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

steamboat!

2010-02-20T00:24:00.001+08:00

i loved this movie! it's been a long time since a movie touched my heart <3

it's really nice i think (:

go watch okay! you dont have to watch it with a loved one, you can watch it with your loved ones! :D like friends!

i watched it, with wanleng, huiyi, gwen, emma, ele, linghui and laury :D

linghui had to leave early for church stuff ):

and i got to see my beloved elaine in co body today (: missed her so much sia!

then we went over to gwen's place for steamboat, hahahhaa, ate so much that i feel like a stuffed animal :D

then kelly came over really late, when we were all full hahhah!

and and, we played blackjack (:

won arnd a dollar plus (: hahhahaha not bad ahhhs :D

im excited over the fact that we have so many activities planned (: excited!

and im going to see my dear 6teen tomorrow after 1 mth plus! <3

oh, and im like seeing pda-s in front of my lift for 2 days in a row O:
ohmy ohmy, what's wrong with my neighbourhood sia.

it's weird not blogging for a few days

2010-02-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

grah, i wanted to have a long pictorial post here, but i cant find my card reader ): hmmmm oh wells, shall start updating from chu yi!

Day One!

it was sort of a boring day, because we just waited for gugu to come for lunch.

i always love it when she comes, it makes me happy (: because although we only see each other arnd once a year, but it's nice talking to her, and know what's up with her (:

hope everything goes well for her though, she kinda hit on a rough patch,

and im hoping things would be alright.

then since chu yi falls on vday which is er yi's bday, we went over to her house for dinner (:

lao-ed yusheng, as well as had a bday celebration for her (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ER YI!

Day Two!

Went to Edwin's place, had buffet lunch :]

and my main entertainment of the day came from my dear Shanice, who is super cute <3 watched madagascar 2 with her and ohmy, she was super hyper! (:

and that edwin gorgor damn mean, he wanted me to say 10 cny wishes before i could collect my angpow ): haiyo, everytime must bully me like that de!

then went over to gu po's place with daddy. and once again, i did what i do best, playing with kids.

and i swear, biao shu's son, matthew, is damn cute! he is super photogenic, and ohmy his smile makes me happy (:

PS: he's only 7 and he can dian ppl alrd!

and biaoshu's daughter who's 1, dances to sorry sorry! cute ttm sia!

they seriously made my day, though it was kinda boring over at gu po's place :/ oh wells hahah:D

Day Three!

Went to Kuan's place, and attempted to play poker.

but since i was playing with people who are super not on, we got bored ):

watching the adults play in between was fun (:

they were super high over it can!

hahahah, then afterwards went to meet gugu and biaogu with daddy to watch 14 blades together!

it was seriously a good show, and i really liked the show (Y)

Day Four!

met kuku in the morn, and i had to treat him to starbucks because he actually was early, he reached at 10.58am when we were supposed to meet at 11am.

he took cab just for starbucks! ):

oh wells, and then went down to meet yeesin, and we saw marc at the bus stop, so the 4 of us bused down to tamp to meet the rest, marshall, caiyan, jessica, felicia, jiamin, melissa and marcus.

bused down to clement's place where xiaoxiao was alrd there, then jiamin, melissa, sijia, jeant and kaleryn came afterwards :]

clement's place maciam gambling den, got mj, bj, in between, poker, taiti etc etc.

hahahhaha, we all like gamblers sia, and i lost the most in the last round of bj, because stupic eric had to come O:

ahahhaha no la, because when he came, just nice i banker, then he bet 1 buck. end up he got 2 aces, so i had to pay him triple.

and in that round, almost everybody i had to pay double.

which means i was damn suay.

then next round eric bj!

haiz, so suay again, lost a total of 15 bucks that day, due to the fact that i lost alot in taiti and the bj!

hahahha at first poker i got win one lor! ):

oh wells,we went to ehub afterwards to eat bbq chicken, and eric treated me (:

THANKS EH! :D oh wells, he like won so much from me!

then we went to the arcade till ten plus, and the rest went bowling while jessica, felicia, edmund and i headed home. hahahah, lol at edmund who was trying to teach me lang ystd!

but not bad, at least i learnt a little bit of lang :D

Day Five!

Okay, that's today :] went back to school to study with kal, yeesin, sher, marcus, caiyan, marshall, edmund, kelvin and jessica (:

and studying with them was super hilarious, edmund and marshall were super duper funny sia! HAHAHAHAHAHAH:D ~~explicit details shall not be revealed here~~, but all in all, it was just damn funny! HAHA!

then some of them went to the roof top, but then i didnt dare to climb up the ladder, so ohwells :]

sat at the staircase there with jessica and kelvin while waiting for them to come down.

injured my right hand while catching edmund's bag from the top, and i swear, my hand pain now sia ):

went for dinner opp sch before heading home with kal (:

i really love hthts on the bus <3

Can't wait for tomorrow, steamboat with the h12 girls! <3

i finally finished typing this in one hour because i keep getting distracted by online stuffs hahhaha :D

and i want my card reader! ):

i shall share my fave love song on vday :>

2010-02-14T14:43:00.002+08:00

（forever love 王力宏）
爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你
每个眼神触动我的心
（两个人的烟火 黎明）
最爱你的是我
否则你怎麽让我
否则我怎麽可能赴汤蹈火
你说什麽都做
（如果．爱 张学友）
如果这就是爱
在转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
（童话 光良）
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
（很爱很爱你 刘若英）
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
（我愿意 王菲）
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
我什麽都愿意 为你
（好想好想 古巨基）
好想好想 好想好想
好想好想和你在一起
（明天我要嫁给你了 周华健）
明天我要嫁给你啦
明天我要嫁给你啦
要不是你问我
要不是你劝我
要不是适当的时候你让我心动
（不得不爱 潘玮柏/弦子）
天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
i love you
我就是要你让我每天都精彩
（阴天 莫文蔚）
开始总是分分钟
都妙不可言
谁都以为热情它永不会减
总之那几年
感性赢了理性那一面
（飞机场的10:30 陶喆）
baby baby baby baby 
O baby baby O baby
是不是拥有以后就会开始要失去
我给你的越多
你却越想要躲
爱已无法回答所有的问题
（那么爱你为什么 黄品源/莫文蔚）
离开你是傻是对是错
是看破是软弱
这结果是爱是恨或者是什么
（你怎么舍得我难过 黄品源）
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这麽多
你却没有感动过
（爱我别走 张震岳）
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
（让我欢喜让我忧 周华健）
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
（原来你什么都不想要 张惠妹）
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的承诺
不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好,贪心也好
最怕你把沉默,当做对我的回答
原来你什么都不想要
（用心良苦 张宇）
你说你想要逃
偏偏注定要落脚
情灭了爱熄了
剩下空心要不要
（祝福 张学友）
伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远 
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节
（吻别 张学友）
我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等着迎接伤悲
（把悲伤留给自己 陈升）
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走
（征服 那英）
就这样被你征服切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固我的决定是糊涂
（听海 张惠妹）
听海哭的声音
叹惜着谁又被伤了心
（味道 辛晓琪）
像你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道
（我怀念的 孙燕姿）
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
（领悟 辛晓琪）
我多麽痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚任意追逐
别再为爱受苦
（月亮惹的祸 张宇）
都是你的错在你的眼中
总是藏着让人又爱又怜的朦胧
都是你的错你的痴情梦
像一个魔咒
被你爱过还能为谁蠢动
（我们的爱 fir）
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默默的等待
我们的爱
我明白
已变成你的负担
只是永远
我都放不开
最后的温暖
（你把我灌醉 黄大炜）
你把我灌醉你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪我拚命挽回
你把我灌醉你让我心碎
爱得收不回
（眼泪 范晓萱）
oh 眼泪
眼泪都是我的体会
成长的滋味
oh 眼泪
忍住眼泪不让你看见
我在改变
孤单的感觉
你从不曾发现
我笑中还有泪
（情非得已 庾澄庆）
只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气
（你是如此难以忘记 梁朝伟）
你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平息
（心太软 任贤齐）
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强
（forever love 王力宏）
forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后
你会是所有
幸福的理由
forever love
forever love
forever love

CNY EVE (Y)

2010-02-13T16:17:00.000+08:00

woooooo it's finally cny eve, and i love the slack slack feeling, except for the fact that ive got to study when the celebrations are over!

so today was sort of a busy day, went down to buy my baking stuff, and then finally i started baking. it was a success, contrary to the beliefs of certain skeptics-.- oh wells, still, they were edible and to a certain extent, taste quite awesome (:

lalala, im happy so far :] cant wait for tuan yuan fan tonight! :D and visiting tmr! :D

shopping in a different sense.

2010-02-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

today was a total slack day. :]

bcs for less than an hour, then lunched with the girls (:

oh and i got another C for my web project-.- oh wells, hope i can do well for other subjects to pull up my overall gpa :/

my dear yeesin came to meet me to pass me a small vday gift that was enough to make my day (: love her so much <3

then went to meet edmund to take 168 tgt, because the super nice me kindly obliged to ms chervyn tng's request of meeting her in woodlands before heading down to orchard tgt hahah(: yeah and yay love her for pei-ing me to orchard for like the second time in a week (:

finally got a dress from f21, plus a cool studded belt (: and i was damn happy because i saw chinpei and chengmun at wisma! and i received my second vday present from moony (: in all, i was just darn happy to see so many people around, i saw angela, si'en around in town too haha.

@chinpei: we have a lot of catching up to do :D
then we went far east, hoping to get a mani, but everywhr had that 5 bucks surcharge, so end up we gave up and went home hahaha.

then went chongpang with family to do some last min cny shopping, and thr were lots of stamping of feet and banging and being pushed around by each other ): well, not that im a spoilt brat and i hate markets, but yeah, just disliked the feeling. but i was being a good girl and pei-ed mum and dad to carry lots of stuff! bought loads of cny foodstuffs for tmr's tuan yuan fan, and chu yi's lunch whr mummy's gonna cook! YAY :D

and stupid edmund koh cheat my feelings today ): haiyo ):

post number 300!

2010-02-12T00:44:00.000+08:00

today was a good day. a superb one in fact :]

first up, i got back my micro coursework grades. A for portfolio, and A for overall coursework grade! (:

then during socio, ms chin said that she felt that our grp was the best among the grps in her classes, and i felt so happy because we were a super last minute group (: but we got an average of B for the grp work, and i hope i can get a B+ for this subject :D

then there was psycho! amazingly, our group did well. though we were the last group, mr noor said that we were an excellent closing and we did an excellent job (: which means good news for us? (:

went for dinner and k session at northpoint with cheeming and james, colin couldnt come cos he had to go home for spring cleaning. and singing with them was really damn fun, and i sang qing ge wang, the whole song this time :D whee~ i miss singing k so much!~

THE THREE GRP MEMBERS WHO KEEP BULLYING ME: JAMES, CHEEMING AND COLIN :D

i hope this happy spirit will continue (:

meeting chervyn dear tmr <3 whee~

you were part of my happy day :]

ramennnnnnnnnn ^.^v

2010-02-10T21:05:00.001+08:00

today was a good good day for me :D

CS Interview role play turned out fabulous, and for my group, helmi and i "got the job" after evaluation from ms shirley, meaning we did pretty well in the interview among our group members (:

then GTT test was awesome, i spent 8 mins for a 1hr test, and got 43/50. How awesome is that :D so together with my previous test, i got a total of 89 marks for GTT online test (: YAY!
oh and ms helwina said that the flights for the msia trip are determined by our current classes,which means im going on the 2nd week! I AM VERY HAPPY because i will most probably not have to miss camp if there it going to be one! :D

went to eat AJISEN RAMEN with kelly, gwen, wanleng, sammy, ele, emma and laury:> finally satisfied my craving for both ramen and sushi as i ordered califonia maki for my side dish hehheh :D surprised kelly with a bday cake too (: lemon cheesecake, i love that too wahahahah:D glad she liked the whole thing (:

walked arnd T1 before heading home. im like finally home before 9? hahahahha:D it's like the first time in idk when.

AND OHMY I GOT A FUCKING C+ FOR MY GTT. OHMY ): not very happy now. my first C+ leh. hope i get enough As to pull my GPA up, if not i will go bang wall and cry ):

~~i will learn how to get used to it. i will.~~

nightmares ):

2010-02-10T10:53:00.000+08:00

okay, i had 2 nightmares, and the freaky thing is they were related to today's roleplay and tmr's psych presentation.

and somehow, i always dream about stuffs that i dread, or im afraid of, especially in the course of this AY. maybe my stress level had hit an all time high, or im just weaker at handling my academic and emotional stress. i really don't know. but oh wells, i need to get ready for cs2 roleplay(this word always remind me of kuku because he said smth kuku ystd-.-) and gtt test (:

and dinner with the girls tonight and karaoke with the guys tmr! :D whee~ excited! i just cant wait for tomorrow to come, so that it will mean that everything, all the tests and presentations will be officially over (:

but at the same time... i will mean that this AY is coming to an end, and grah, we'll have to split classes le ): ohmy ohmy O:

cravings :>

2010-02-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

went to school for psycho meeting, then OB revision lecture. fell asleep, because it was really boring.

met up with kaleryn, yeesin and edmund for studying session, and at least i sort of finished my studying for GTT. shall read it through again, and yes i need to look through my cover letter and resume. hope tmr's interview will be a breeze :D

talking to huiyi is not good. now i have cravings for ramen and sushi. grah!

this is why i love you.

2010-02-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

sugarloafed in noon with a lot of salvo people (:

chiawei, marcus, ruohan, jiamin, jeant, sijia, ruth, amanda, yeesin, lynette, karen, marshall, caiyan, marc, kelvin, peiyin, edmund, liyen and charmaine choo :D that's like a lot of people yeah? :D had pasta salad, some strawberry sparkler thing, and a crumble :D it was so yummy, and hahahah i had a sugar rush attack singing songs with jeant who was super crazy hahha! sijia is the girl with a broken smile, and chiawei is gay chiawei :D

went to meet linghui and gwen for ob, and we got back our ob results, i got an A woohoo:D and so if i do well for my test, i hope i can get A for the exam combined too :D had micro lec which was BORING, and then waited for an hour for the SL briefing.

went to met caiyan and jessica at proj room cos kal, edmund, peiyin and marshall went macs to eat. studied and crapped abit before heading home. popped by jacq's place for some htht, ~~and i realised i lost smth dear to me ): very upset O: oh wells, im gna do smth to cheat myself, grah.~~ thanks babe for always being there, and the big big hug from you, you always make me feel loved <3

and now, i shall go slp, because imma sleepy girl.

happy birthday to my blog :D

2010-02-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

hahahah, it's been one year since this gay blog existed hahahah:D

technically it should be 7th feb, but it's past 12am (:

commskills test was gay ttm, and i dont expect to be able to do well for it, because i didnt study much for it. ate indian food and A1 with classmates, then took 23 with emma, lh and gwen to boon keng(:

spent 55.80 on a whole set of suit, blazer and pants at wingtai, then went town to meet chervyn :]

bought a vest, a dress, a bag, a pair of shoes, and bangles for cny :D then went to amk to meet kuan. hahahah i think i very lucky, got free labour help me carry all my shopping stuff hehheh :D

and im officially in love with peach green tea from koi :D it's really really yummy <3

watched pandorum, but i fell asleep cos i was too sleepy ):

worked today, and shopped some more :D i think i've spent like loads of money this week! but it's okay, because it's for cny woohoo :D

last lap.

2010-02-06T00:58:00.000+08:00

well, after tomorrow, vivian will be a much happier girl than she has been the past few weeks :]

because it's the last lap, with one more test, a presentation, and interview roleplay :D and this sem would be over (:

had bcs presentation today, which was ~~total crap~~. today practically spent the whole day attempting to study bcs, but too bad, my brain just dont want to let bcs enter my brain :/ nothing could get in i tell you, and i gave up 1 hr before the paper and just chatted with the girls before going for the paper. left the lt at 7, because i know stay the whole hour also no use lor.

went for extra training today, was kinda happy, because the lang people very nice, will make time to let me play my li shi chang he cos im the only one thr today! played xuan and bdazu too, which made me happy too :D ~~was a little disappointed with some stuffs,~~ but i know i cannot do anything to change it, disappointed also no use bah.

then homed with yeesin and ruohan, and dropped off at khatib to go meet daddy (: and it was a good thing meeting daddy because i would have to go home alone, and i wasnt fond of that idea today hahah:D

grah, it's 1am and i cant be bothered to study commskills.

die la tmr, now all i want is play, not test on a fine saturday morning :/

irritations

2010-02-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

i really dont like constructions around my place.

there's alot of irritations.

1) health irritations-my eyes, my nose, my skin.

2) noise irritations-the constant drilling

3) public irritations-there are people who will keep staring at you as if they've nvr seen a girl before. wtf.

seeeeee, what's the point of having so much constructions? ):

my rashes are giving me loads of problems again luh ><

today was slack like nobody's business. micro, socio, psycho, all slack slack de (:

good thing is k session next thursday is confirmed with the psycho guys :D yay really excited, and i conned them into coming to yishun so i could walk home :D teehee, privilege of being the only girl+leader :D

decided not to go for training today, cos needed to study for bcs and do bcs ppts. should do them soon, so i have time to study tonight. maybe tmr night then go down for training bah. (:

oh shit, i havent studied for cs. greatttttttt.

confusion

2010-02-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say. i dont know what to feel.

today went to school for the measurement shit, was irritated by certain people :/

went engine for the first time to makan, then went bistro for ice cream (:

gtt lasted for like half an hour-.-

was talking and chatting with huiyi till it was time for salvo.

today was preview. and i realy have nth much to say about anything because im really not in the mood for it.

didnt go for dinner, was sick and needed to study for psycho btw :/

grah, salvo ended really late today >.< left school at arnd 10 plus?

why is it that i got smth i really wanted, but yet i feel upset? do i really want it?

cant help this feeling

2010-02-03T00:04:00.001+08:00

today was fine, ob lecture, followed by studying session, then extra training for first score. only 5 people came, and erm, i just have nth to say bah. ended up practising alone in studio 8.

post training was erm, not so good. htht with yeesin was good, and now i have a spinning headache, which is not good ):

i just realised i have been procrastinating too much. i should study. 4 tests this week. damn.

是我变了，还是你变了？或许我们都没变，或许这一切都只是我的幻觉。

~~i am nobody's somebody ):~~

dizziness.

2010-02-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

chionged to school early in the morning to submit bcs. was late for 5 mins though :/ hope she accepts it ):

then ate breakfast with wanleng and linghui before meeting sammy and huiyi to finish up gtt.

hate it with the one mb limit shit O: print screen ftw i tell you. the size ended up being 979kb. awesome or what? (:

then fell asleep during micro, the lecturer even asked if i needed coffee. malu ttm pls. ):

training was kinda upsetting for me. the attempt to learn the actions almost killed me. plus the lack of food in my tummy made things worse and i seriously felt damn uncomfortable and felt like puking.

watched the senior's preview, and i thought that they were not bad (: some stuffs happened though, and i hope everything will work out bah :/ still, was pretty awestruck by some of the scores :D

then yeah, so my plan to go home early has not worked yet, because i end up eating as im too hungry ):

and now, im just a girl who lacks sleep. O: wait, work is not done yet. how nice.

and im too bored to add colours. sleepy now ):

pictorial update of ystd (:

2010-01-31T20:47:00.000+08:00

today was a real boring day cos i stayed at home all day. and i havent started with my work yet. omg, how sia ): i think i will stay up tonight, because somehow i thrive best at night. (:

oh and i have to study :/

Pictures from ystd :D

after the performance (:

my dear girls (:

the birthday boy (:

and i really like this picture :D i think i look good in it hahahah:D

cousin's 21st plus a super busy day.

2010-01-31T02:08:00.001+08:00

well didnt manage to do a proper post ystd, anyways, im not that pissed off anymore. (:

ystd was freebie friday by tpsu, so i went to get freebies, and helium balloons (: hahahah lots of video up on fb, and my video is in the link below! :D we were having fun with the helium voice and conclusion is: sammy is more act cute with the balloons!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=276265895687&ref=mf

so ystd celebrated geokhan's 21st birthday at her house thr (: it was a diff kind of 21st i've seen, smth very cosy, with just a few close friends and having fun. not that it's bad that there's a lot of people, but she wasnt as busy and could really sit down and talk to her friends (: which was good :D

had fun playing with kuan's iphone. btw, im going to save up for an ipod touch!

after thailand trip! :D

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GEOKHAN :D ENJOY YOUR ADULTHOOD! :D

so so so, today was a hyper busy day.

went back to school for BCS at 9am ohmytian. woke up like super early and i almost missed my stop ):

anyways, so not bad, managed to finish collating everything, now just left reference links and features and we'll be done :D how awesome is that? :D

then we also started on gtt, though got abit of hiccups here and there, im guessing that things would go pretty well (:

ate lunch with sammy at bishan before going to work, and ohmans, working today was so fun, because i worked with zana babe <3 i miss her like ohmy alot!

worked for 4 hrs, then went down to woodlands to meet the salvo people and also go buy cake for the birthday people (: clement marcus and kaleryn pei-ed me to rp first, but then salvo has a super bad habit of tuo-ing, end up we couldnt cut the cake before the concert, and had to rush ):

but ohmy the concert was really awesome, and i was really really impressed, like WOW. it was so interesting seeing primary sch kids and sec sch kids playing, and i was really impressed by them. oh and we saw a child prodigy! he was like "performing" during the interval and he damn cute can! can even do those damn seh ending post! oh and we gave them sunflowers which kal and i were busy cam-whoring with.

I REALLY LOVE SUNFLOWERS. :D

waited for them to come out and take pictures, and also cut cake for yuanwei and ziying (: then we waited for ruohan and marc to come out to eat dinner (: had super bad gastric pains cos i forgot to eat before the concert O:

the tamp ppl had to leave first, cos they needed to catch the last bus, so ended up only left jeant, jiamin, marc, ruohan, edmund, kaleryn, yeesin, chiawei and me to go 515 makan (: took cab home with yeesin, chiawei and ruohan, and now im happily home, and im gonna sleep til i shuang tmr before chionging GTT (: and maybe town-ing with chervyn (: yay imma happy girl today :D

OHOH and kal and i were like twins today, both wear a white and black combi, with butterfly stretch belt. and we wore black cardi also. ohmytian, kaleryn is my twin today :D

Camwhore with sunflowers :D

if only the flowers were for me! teehee :D

oh and happy birthday to TANYUANWEI :D

~~what would i do without you? ):~~

pissed off

2010-01-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldnt be pissed off, but still i really cant help it.
first, you lecture me over alcohol (like wtf?)
and you have the habit of taking things that are shared. so now what? can you at least tell me that you took it? and not just informing me when i need it. great, i cant have what i want now.
just damn fucking pissed off, and i know i shouldnt be, because it's part of my resolution. thats why im ranting it here. fuck it.

and i hate my desktop. just dislike my friday today, because somehow things dont seem to be going my way. grah.
im still fucking pissed off :/

coach carterrrrrrr!

2010-01-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

finally one presentation down, done with sociology :D

and today my grp keeps bullying me just because i shot another team down during their presentation. but thinking in another way, it's a good thing that we're in the same group, we didnt get slammed as much hahahah:D

then psycho was not bad, and i kena bullied by my grp members again. guess this is what happens when you're in an all guys group LOL.

last lecture today, last psycho picnic session with bryan and guys ): abit sad leh.

the term's ending in 2 weeks time. and i still have 4 projects left, 4 Tests and 2 Exam papers left. comeon! tomorrow die die also must chiong for BCS, if not really die. i hope we all can do it (: jiayou groupmates! :D

and in 2 weeks' time, i've to start saying goodbyes... i've come to enjoy my sociology lessons, my psychology lessons, and also H12. i guess i will really miss everything so much when this term is really over in 2 weeks' time...

and i need HTHTs. shertang, im waiting <3

actions and scores

2010-01-28T01:32:00.000+08:00

apparently my plan to come home early always dont work out, cos i end up going to s11 to eat-.-

but at least i save more money than going to macs luh.

well, commskills sucked as usual, msn-ed with huiyi, telling each other how loud we typed LOL.

then pei-ed her to iit to find stefan before i went back business lab to do gtt.

learnt actions for first score today, and well there was no preview today, but was pretty happy that we learnt quite abit of the actions le. need to brush them up more though :/ grah.

tomorrow is submission for microecons, and sociology presentation! ohmyohmy, after this, i need to chiong GTT and BCS alrd. comeon vivian, i can do it :D

im like planning stuffs in advance such that i'll have things to look forward to (: like shopping trips, k sessions, and eating out sessions which will happen most probably after the salvo concert ): poof oh wells, better than never right? :D

my mood seems to be like a rollercoaster, up and down, and i dont know where i am now. guess last week was kind of an 'off' week for me.

and pssst, i think clement looks ABIT like renguangxi. how sia. hahahaha, clement ah clement, you become my eye candy alrd la hahahahahahhaha:D i was telling him this the whole day today to make him happy. see i so nice :D

udders :D

2010-01-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

school was alright, had ssm briefing, then went to novena with family (:

okay, though there's nth much to say, but i just wanna tell them that im really really thankful for having them in my yr1 life, because without them, the whole year would not be as awesome as it had been. amazingly, this ay is going to end soon, and so is our class ): rather upset that we may have to go to different classes, but hope that we'd still find time and catch up in the future(: Love you girls alot (:

went cotton on, went udders, and survived a bus trip home (:

today's been a great day so far, but it's going to end because i am going to start doing my work. ~~i hope.~~

going for kota kinabalu (:

2010-01-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

just did my selection, so i think im more or less in the malaysia thing alrd (:

today was a fine day in school, had comskills meeting to watch that weirdo video, and then OB, and then microecons lecture which ended really early cos it was mr wong who conducted the lecture (: huiyi and i were too busy playing word warp to pay attention to what he was saying actually.

then had cca. some unfortunate stuffs happened though, and hadi was sent to the hospital cos he dislocated his arm as the drum fell off him. ): it was scary seeing what happened :/

and we tried to learn to tiao4 gu3 today, and apparently i think i damn fail. i kept knocking my shin against the gu3 bian1, so ended up my shin is like full of bruises and some of them are even swollen. and it's still very painful ):

we finished learning 1st score today :D but the playing was not very good luh, in the sense that we kept forgetting some of the parts. but i shall try my best to remember them, so i can play them out on wednesday (: hoping that our 1st score will do well in the preview next week :/

initially wanted to skip dinner to rush home to talk to mum and pops abt the overseas edu thing, but then as i talked to them on the phone, my parents supported my decision, and so i realised i didnt have to rush home anymore. ended up eating dinner with ruohan at s11, and i made it home to be one of the kiasu kids to sign up for the edu trip(:

grah, my shin is still painful now ): looks like i've to wear leggings tmr to cover up :/ poof.

2010-01-25T10:37:00.001+08:00

i cant get this song outta my head :D

sunday routines

2010-01-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

i realised that for the past 3 sundays, my routine has been pretty much the same. and i really have alot of stuff to talk about it.

1) I really dont like taking trains on Sunday nights.

I'm not going to state the reason here, but if you know what the reason is, i'm pretty much sure you know what i mean. Also, certain people take up lots of space and blocks the way such that people are cramming up at the entrance. worse still if you have alcohol around. urgh.

2) I really cant stand the couple who PDAs at the entrance of my lift.

I saw them last week, sitting on the staircase in front of my lift making out. and when i came out, they were staring at me. they were like this 15-16 yr old malay couple? ohmyyyy. and worse, the guy was topless today. and i saw them again. omfg. seriously, i really would like to ask them to get a room, ~~but i have no balls.~~

3) work was bad, as usual.

today i realised how pesky kids can be. This boy, he tugged on the big big poster and he dropped. and apparently the mother didnt even chide her child. she didnt even apologise. she just walked off without saying anything. this is so irritating, apparently this is how their upbringing is like.

oh speaking of kids, i remembered something damn funny last night. hahaha:D

cos there was this little kid at songleng's chalet last night, and she damn cute, she waved and high-fived everyone. except yuanwei. hahahaha! apparently we thought she didnt like guys, but we tried asking edmund and bryden to try waving to her, and she waved back! so we determined it was yuanwei's problem. hahah:D i think it's his fault la! yuanwei tried hiding behind me with his hand out in hope that she would high-five him, and she did. haiz yuanwei ah yuanwei, you sad case la hahaahhaha:D

~~im still kinda upset from some stuffs ystd :/ grahhhhhhhh.~~

after drinking...

2010-01-24T02:07:00.002+08:00

decided to blog while waiting for my damn hair to dry.

didnt go eehui's place today, so ended up doing my work at home and watched the 1st 2 eps of 下一站，幸福。

met kaleryn and liyen at pasir ris mrt before yuanwei came, then went to ehub to meet sijia, jiamin, ziying, jeant and pengsong before heading to the chalet together (: bbq-ed a little here and there, and also sat around practicing our scores hahaahha! oh and we started drinking, like gin mix random drinks, and i tried abit of the regal chevis thing. it was nice :D

then we sang bday song for songleng, charmaine koh was like super nice, she asked her mum and sis to deliver a bday cake for songleng knowing that he didnt prepare one! ohmy she's super niceeee! after that, the fun started!

they had these foam sprays, so alot of people kena a lot, especially people like liyen, chiawei and edmund hahah! somehow, someway, we started playing with water, and a lot of us got damn wet! hahaha, edmund chiawei play until super crazy, and hahahah, we kept mopping up the floor with the towels cos it was almost flooding hahah!

then we practically went crazy, and played for close to 2 hours? hahahh:D well unfortunately some stuffs happened, and then we ended up cleaning up the place as a whole group, and we really all chop chop get our stuffs done so songleng could check out soon (: it was really nice (: hahaha then the the guys like loaned the girls their tshirts and jackets cos we were really wet! thanks guys for the gesture (:

then as it was too late so after taking 21 with liyen to tamp, chiawei, kal, edmund and i took cab back.

dropped off at chongpang, and i took like 20 plus mins to walk home-.-

i think edmund and kaleryn reached home earlier than me can-.-

okay, my hair is like dry now, so i can go slp already (:

work tomorrow! need to slp early!

Happy Birthday to Songleng (21st bdayyyyy)! :D

Happy birthday to Ziying (18th bdayyyyy)! :D

autumn's concerto

2010-01-23T14:58:00.001+08:00

most people would know i'm not a ou xiang ju kind of girl, like i wont go and zhui those taiwan idol dramas. However, there were only a couple that really caught my eye. and one more just did today (:

was watching autumn's concerto today on ch 56, and i liked it immediately that i'm watching it on pps now (:

from 仲天骐 to 纪存希 to 任光晞！:D awesome much yeah :D

and the song is very nice :D

back home to sn huahui

2010-01-23T01:12:00.001+08:00

in a much better mood today :D

went back to sn today to talk to the juniors in huahui, and i tell you, the huahui spirit could really be felt. seriously. because wanglaoshi just needed to ask for us to come back, and ended up there were so many seniors who went back! including big red, light blues, greys, reds, yellows and dark blues. 6 different badges, but all came back for just one reason: huahui's pride and joy, qihang.

though we dont know ask going back would help them in anyway or not, but sincerely hoping for them to buck up, and make our dream a success. (:

we sang qihang song and hui ge, i was so surprised that i remembered the lyrics and actions!

went home to bathe before meeting kal to go for sl's chalet (: it was darn funny, whatever happened in the room... it was damn RA. HAHAHAHHA:D taupoks and uh traumatising stuffs. omtt. but i left early, cos i decided that i wna spend tmr morn doing my work, so i need not worry about them on sunday when im working (:

guess happiness comes in many little ways, just that i couldnt feel them when im upset. (: i shall try to inject this positive mood in my work, and things will be so much better (:

会歌：

别再保持沉默快和我跳起舞

全华会已经随着音乐在摆动

别让心情沉重别站立着不动

留一些空间让你我心情放松

没有回忆的感动就让歌声带动节奏

这种感觉从来都没有

1，2，3 Hey！

全华会跟着我在摇摆

青春的舞让你我跳起来

爱和希望从此凝天窗直投你胸怀

全华会跟着我在摇摆

青春的舞让你我跳起来

爱和希望从此凝天窗直投你胸怀

华会 Oi！

华会Oi！

华会 ABBA!

启航歌

看我满怀理想往这世界里面闯

站在广大的台上尽情演出散发光芒

大家齐聚一堂心连心实现梦想

抱着同一个理想共同进退展翅飞翔

启航！启航！

比起来真是不同凡响跟着我们让心情奔放

沉浸在快乐的时光 Woah~

我的心和你一起奔放没人能挡在我的前方

路越难走我越坚强

启航，哇！无法挡！

它的魅力不寻常华会团结是力量

高声欢呼：

这是我们的启航！

hair grows from the ends-samantha lim jia yi

2010-01-22T10:05:00.000+08:00

sammy is the best.

she thought that hair grew from the ends and nails grew from the white part. how smart.

great laugh during lunch ystd and it's still a great joke among us hahaha:D

and mum was cute, she said she wants to go watch MY EX with me, just because i said i wanted to. but i too scared la heh. my level stays at stupid shows like drag me to hell.

and dad actually, for the first time asked me if i had enough money to spend. yay!

yesterday was a generally better day than tues and wed.

and my psycho group will go out after our presentation :D wheee~ singing k with many people in feb, and it's making me very happy . too bad i have to wait till february. grah.

sociology essay and commskills settled today (:

and back to SN later(:

songleng's 21st bday bbq later (:

negative vibes

2010-01-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

i know i have been really negative for the past few days.

project deadlines, presentations, inability to play score, and all my weird thoughts running wild doesnt make things any better.

and i ~~really tried~~ to be positive about things. i really really tried, but whenever i realised that things arent going as well as i think, i get despaired, and i really wanna give up.

somehow i wonder what am i doing with my life now.

i know i have great friends around me who are supporting me and cheering me up whenever im down, i know there are people i can count on when i need someone to rant to. but somehow nothing seems to be able to cheer me up as well as simple stuff could in the past.

~~not a smile, not ice cream, not my favourite people.(well, not enough to bring me back to being really happy)~~

the negativity is so strong that i really hate it.

the only 2 things that made me slightly better today was psycho meeting, we were so excited about going to sing k after our presentation. and being able to play the full learnt score during the preview. heaved a sigh of relief when we managed to finish playing without having marc cutting us in the middle.

okayy, i guess i need to start with my work. decided to go for dinner cos i was starving, and now im kinda regretting it:/ need to do sociology grah.

the tears that are welling up.

2010-01-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

i really cant take it anymore.
louis texted us abruptly to tell us that he is quitting the course. and so now what? after all we have done, after all the effort we have put in, now you say you quit? CMSK is a highly dependent grpwork, and now you say you are going to withdraw. tyvm.
you have successfully made me cry over schoolwork. you are the first.

i really need a break when all this is over.

2010-01-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

"Behind every beautiful rainbow, there's a thunderstorm. I always used to say this phrase every now and then because I believe that every sad thing that happens to you will get you something good in return."
-quoted from Huiyi's blog.

somehow, this made me feel slightly better. and i hope this is true (:

i cant get the feeling outta my head.

2010-01-19T21:09:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel really lousy, and i dont even know where to start. i dont even know how exactly this feeling came about. damn it. it's affecting me so much that i cant seem to be bothered to start with my work. someone tell me how sia ):

~~i feel like crying alrd.~~

i had a dream

2010-01-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

a dream so vivid, such that the sense of loss was so strong well after hours i woke up.

so, i dreamt that i was taking the train home with a whole group of people, until i was left with someone, and we alighted at yck mrt to go nyp. then in nyp, for some reason, this person just walked away, and never came back. i went home on my own, and the sense of loss was so so so strong. i woke up, feeling really upset about this. and the worse thing? this person was super nice to me prior to the walking away, like offering to buy me breakfast the next morning.
this dream is really really vivid that i got scared. can someone tell me why? i think this dream represents to real me. i can be independent, but i just dont like the feeling of being abandoned, or left aside.

and im fucking irritated by someone in my CS2 group. no worries, everyone knows who he is. ~~fucking fucking fucking irritating.~~

shitty feeling all over :/

2010-01-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

rah rah rah.

i dont know how to feel, or what to feel already.

sometimes, im just too tired to even feel anything. or i just grew used to every little thing that's making me upset.

though OB was fine today, with lots of laughter, i just felt terrible when i couldnt play the score out just now during training. i felt so so so terrible from within. ~~i tried, i really did, i just cant get it right.~~

so much stuffs to be busy with, and sometimes im so sick and tired of everything. perhaps it's time that i took a break. but when can i ever find time to with so many things piling up?

~~so many things running through my mind. grah.~~

and i realised i cant be bothered to add in colours in my posts anymore. perhaps my life is too dull already.

knnbccb customers.

2010-01-18T00:23:00.001+08:00

yesterday was productive at eehui's place, but i realised i forgot to do something due tomorrow:/ rahh, shall do it tomorrow after cca or smth.

and met up with psych grp members at cpf macs at 9 this morn, and im glad we somehow got most of the stuff done :]

work was seriously fucked up. customers are always right. BULLSHIT. fuck la, what gives you the right to scold me like there was no tomorrow? what gives you the right to make everyone turn their heads and stare at me as if i was at fault? fuck. which part of company policy do you not understand? oh wait, your english sucks. fuck la seriously. hate it so much when there are fucking customers like that who thinks that they are always right. freakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.damn fucking pissed off.

and we confirmed merging into mega store. oh dear, changes again. im so sick and tired of changes in the store. oh wait, arent changes part and parcel of life? i just dont like it. the condtant shifting of management makes working so troublesome. and having to constantly say goodbyes, i dont like it. and maybe not just to work, but this term's ending too, which means goodbye to more people.
~~i hate goodbyes )':~~

grah. OB presentation tomorrow. then practice li shi chang he again. crossing my fingers that i can remember everything.

will my efforts pay off?

good ol' huahui times.

2010-01-16T14:09:00.000+08:00

well today is the most relaxed submission day ever. maybe cos we like had everything ready by 11pm, and could slowly take our time to submit and what not (:

went to school early to finalise everything for OB and CS, and then had BORING BCS LESSONS. rahh, need to start doing the whole BCS web project shit. Rahh.

Then since there was no CS, girls and i went to whitesands to eat Mad Jack, which was soso. I prefer the one in Bukit Timah. Wanleng went home, so the four of us went town to catch New York I Love You (NY, ILY)

erm, i almost fell asleep, especially during the Shia LeBeouf one. damn sian can. and sammy fell asleep halfway through the movie. Seriously, waste money sia.

Went to far east to kia kia, before I went to Amk to buy my formal wear and meet Jacq, Dar and YK! (:

Had dinner at pin si and loads of catching up with them. Most probably wil be going back to SN next friday after CS presentation. :]

Today is a day of chionging work, got loads of stuffs due and i need to finish them ASAP, otherwise I will die. TATA.